Synopsis
an ex-major league baseball player who lost it all when he lost his arm in a car accident. Is now struggling with his issues via- alcoholism, and an addiction to sex. Is going to run out of money soon.
Description
At a slightly average height of five feet and seven inches, Salem is a lean man. He was never too stocky, though he kept his strength up. During his time as a baseball player, he kept to a strict and healthy regime. At the loss of his right arm in a car accident, the twenty seven year old just gave up. The beginning of a beer gut has replaced his abs. Dark sandy blond hair goes un-brushed daily, with matching stubble. Dark blue eyes rimmed red.
Personality
Cynical and depressing is what many people describe Salem out to be. Before the accident he had a pleasant and humorous attitude. Losing his career overnight, just made the man give up hope. He was in his prime, and was only replaced by a no good rookie that still had to prove himself. He loses himself in alcohol, and plenty of one night stands. Sometimes not even noting or caring for the gender of the poor sap that was pathetic enough to bed a one armed man. Or accept money from. He's a black hole.
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History
Dear my beloved baseball,
I miss you.
the end.
Love, Salem.
I wish I could say that
the sort of things that just bring up knots in my heart
and keeps going up faster and faster up the chart
I used to live like the kings
with my wicked arm
it all started with a smash
accompanied with a car alarm
Let me tell you this again
I miss you baseball
miss the way I could entertain
though I just lost it all
my sister says to me
" Grow up
and stop moping and hoping, that your arm will grow back. Its never
coming back, get over it. Grow up, get some help. I'm tired of carting
you around. Call me when you're no longer a dick."
The last I ever saw of her. She was my ride, to the bars
even though I'm scared of cars
You see baseball
I've been told that I've gotten some problems after
I wasn't able to play you
anymore
that I've grown angrier
self abusing even if
I didn't put the knife to my
not like I could hold it to my wrist
more like my throat
my dear baseball
I'll tell you this
I locked myself up for a long long long long time
I learned to hate people more and more
jealous of their symmetrical bodies
even if it wasn't with a
knife or
I drank my pain away
slept
away with any woman, or man who didn't
grimace
at the lack of an arm
even then
with that sort of a t t e n t i o n
over and over again
I don't really plan
on making a new being out of me
though I want to make my team happy
they say to me
" Pick yourself up Decker, we still love you man. Though reading about you in the tabloids, isn't so great anymore."
Okay baseball, I admit
I haven't been too proud of what I've
done
or how I'm
wait
why am I still doing this
thing?
it sends knots to my heart
because I'm writing to you
baseball
I'd do anything to get you back
though anything won't work
not even selling my soul to a
so I've found a new friend my
lovely
baseball
its name is alcohol
alcohol doesn't let me down
I've still haven't gotten over you baseball
though alcohol numbs the pain
turning me more into the people hating monster I've become
alcohol whispers sweet nothings to my ears
"love you, love you. I'll never let you down. You don't need two arms to play with me, shhh. Quiet now, I love you."
I silently listen to the sweet nothings, give into the sweet nothings.
break down
take cold showers at nights
because I'm not
because I'm loved by alcohol.
Though I still love you baseball.
Love always, Salem.
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