I don't know why I am working anymore. My motivation ultimately disappeared, and now I'm floating in open water. Grades and GPAs and class rankings swim around me like sharks, and it is only so much longer before I really start to drown. Expectations of teachers, parents, enemies, people who would like to act on vengeance and friends seem to hover around me, like seagulls, waiting for me to float back to the surface after I have fallen apart, and I know they will pick me to the bone.