My unedited, uncensored writings, and ramblings.

[Katarina Matrix]

To decode my writing
green- Means I'm happy and it was a good day.
red- Means someone pissed me off.
blue-Means I'm sad
black- Means I'm depressed
orange-Means I'm bored
and purple-Means I'm in a loving caring mood

---------- Post added at 06:14 PM ---------- Previous post was at 05:51 PM ----------

I hurt you. You should hate me yet you don't. You still talk and joke with me. You still tell me I'm like your best friend. Why? I'll never understand your reactions or how you can take everything so calmly.

I love you. You and you alone

[Katarina Matrix]

Fairy-Land

Dim vales- and shadowy floods-
And cloudy-looking woods,
Whose forms we can't discover
For the tears that drip all over!
Huge moons there wax and wane-
Again- again- again-
Every moment of the night-
Forever changing places-
And they put out the star-light
With the breath from their pale faces.
About twelve by the moon-dial,
One more filmy than the rest
(A kind which, upon trial,
They have found to be the best)
Comes down- still down- and down,
With its centre on the crown
Of a mountain's eminence,
While its wide circumference
In easy drapery falls
Over hamlets, over halls,
Wherever they may be-
O'er the strange woods- o'er the sea-
Over spirits on the wing-
Over every drowsy thing-
And buries them up quite
In a labyrinth of light-
And then, how deep!- O, deep!
Is the passion of their sleep.
In the morning they arise,
And their moony covering
Is soaring in the skies,
With the tempests as they toss,
Like- almost anything-
Or a yellow Albatross.
They use that moon no more
For the same end as before-
Videlicet, a tent-
Which I think extravagant:
Its atomies, however,
Into a shower dissever,
Of which those butterflies
Of Earth, who seek the skies,
And so come down again,
(Never-contented things!)
Have brought a specimen
Upon their quivering wings.
Edgar Allan Poe

---------- Post added at 07:43 PM ---------- Previous post was at 07:23 PM ----------

I remember the soft feel of your pale white skin, as I caressed your face.
The freckles dusting your face and and arms, making you all the more beautiful.
The salty taste of your lips as the move in harmony with mine, like our own little dance.
I still feel your breath, warm along my neck,I try to say the words " I love you." , but then the world fades to black.
I awake with a start, tears rolling down my cheeks, as I remember you my sweet.
I love you dear, more than you know, alas my sweet it's your time to go and leave me, move on to someone new.
Oh how i shall miss you and your tender laugh and how you brightened my day.
So good bye dear friend, I'll love you till the end.

This message is for you and you alone
Bubbly feelings and heart felt words will mean little to nothing in your book unless you know I mean it.

[Katarina Matrix]

"Today I feel proud to be gay!",said red.
"Yea well I feel proud everyday!",said orange.
"I am happy to be gay.",said yellow.
"Yea! It's super fun to be gay!" said green.
"How can you be so naive? It's not all it's cracked up to be.", said blue
" That may be true, but you must hold your head up and ignore others lies.", said purple the wise.

Put all these thoughts together and you still get a


RAINBOW

[Katarina Matrix]

Today I feel... I'm not quite sure how do describe it. Often I've found my self listening to My Chemical Romance and thinking about life. All of its mysteries and all the insane theories, people, reasons why, and everything. A point I'm truly stuck on is why we chose the paths we do and how everyone's story is different. This world we have is so strange. I honestly do not understand how people stand it here. Oh well there is my rant for the day! :>

[Katarina Matrix]

I have a new color to add to my list of feelings pink!It means i'm in a playful mood.(MY EVIL PRACTICAL JOKER SIDE REVELES ITSELF!!)
Speaking of I have a secret that I want to tell you. Well here it goes... Wait it's a secret... Should I tell you? Nah, I shouldn't... Well maybe... NO! You'd think it was stupid anyways... Do you really wanna know? Are you sure? Are you positive? Are you sure you're positive? Are you positive that you're sure?Ok if you really wanna know... No I can't it might piss you off... OK FINE STOP GRILLING ME! The secret is that I'm gay! Oh? You knew that? Oooops!