With the warmer weather comes beach time! If I'm not around in the evening or on weekends, just assume I'm outside in the sand and sun. Or that I'm playing video games. Tropico 5 came out. Pretty awesome. Will continue to create my Samu dictatorship. I mean... no, I'm totally having my boyfriend's cat rule an island. :3
Sorry for vanishing. Been a crazy few weeks at work (literally nonstop jobs so I've had no time to even do anything) and then I've been playing vid games at home to veg out. I will be gone this weekend, but I'm hoping after the holiday things will get a bit more... normal?
Bleh, I don't know what to talk about. I'm supposed to leave for a wedding on Thursday. I want to go but I'm not sure I want to go with my boyfriend.
He seems to forget that I exist. He doesn't call, unless I'm in bed. He doesn't text, unless it's worthwhile for him. I feel like I'm no longer an important part of his life. When he lived with me, he would tell me that he needed time with friends and family. He would Skype the guys for 2 hours and just goof around. But now that he's moved out? Now that he lives with family and friends... he just leaves me. He doesn't find two hours to talk to me, like he would demand when he was with me.
I know I'm far from perfect, but this lack of communication is really starting to kill me. I'm really not sure how much more of this I can endure. I've lived like this for the past year. It sucks. I feel insignificant and miserable. He wonders why I'm insecure and in constant need for communication. How would he like it if I stopped talking to him. Stopped caring. Stopped loving. How would he like it if I just walked away.
I just... I just don't know what to do anymore.
So my weekend was WAY better then planned. He's just really bad at talking and saying things. He makes a lot of assumptions and well, I'm the idiot that doesn't assume the best.
ANYWAY, he's supposed to visit this weekend. If he does, I'll really only be able to post on Sunday, in the evening, assuming I don't play the Sims 4
And I'm back! Managed to eat really bad pizza this weekend. Gawd, I feel worse than before! Anyway, I'm not surer how frequent my posts will be this week. The bosses are back in town and I might have some "hot" assignments to work on. I'll try to post when free ^^
I am so sorry to hear that, Xavi. It's absolutely, a 100% understandable to not have the emotional energy to do anything right now - and I'm sure writing is far from your mind. My best wishes go out to you, their family and everyone effected. We are always here if ya need to talk.
And I hope you have not a single still moment.
I apologize for the lack of activity lately. Since mid-December, I got a new boss at work. Let's just say it hasn't been fun. I'm stressed all day and come home to just veg on movies or easy games. By 8:30 I'm getting ready for bed and at 9 I'm asleep.
I've already complained to my former boss about the new one. Looks like I'm not the only one to complain either. Hopefully, come February things will get better. If not, come summer I might need to find a new job.
I hate micromanaging bosses.....
That really stinks Xavi. *hugs* Hopefully things well get better for you at work.
"We are our own devils; we drive ourselves out of our Edens." ~ Goethe
Oh! You're back! I know I had a stalker letter prepared for you somewhere. *rummage* *clears throat*
Hi, Xavirne. Remember me? You thought that you could hide, but ~I found youuuuu~. *Queue “Let it Go” music* Don't let go! Don't let go! Without you, Xavirne, I would di~ie! Don't let go! Don't let go! You don't want to see me cry! Here I stand! And here I'll stay! Let us write on! What the fuck! Roleplay!
So...yeah, I don't have the best reputation, but wanna roleplay? I'm trying to be more active :P
"Ew. Did you check to see what date this raw milk expires?"
"Yeah, what happened?"
"I found a curd."
"Did you shake it?"
"No."
"It's the cream. The fat floats to the top."
"Oh, I just thought it was Bridgid's backwash the first couple of times."
"Wait, why didn't you say 'ew' when you thought that?"