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I took a shower as well real quick, and brushed my teeth really well. It sobered me up a bit. I wore some shorts and a tank top, and I laid beside her, smiling shyly..

I smiled back. She's so cute when she's shy. "Are you nervous or something?" I asked, my words slightly slurred, my fingertips tracing her arm.

"No." I said, and I moved closer to her, pulling the blankets over us. I was freezing. I wasn't joking when I said I got cold . . but she was so warm...

I smiled and wrapped my arms around her, pulling her close and taking in the sweet scent of her body wash.

I cuddled right up to her, sighing contently. She was so soft, and her smell was amazing.. I closed my eyes soon after, knowing my really sober self in the morning would be blushing like mad

I woke up the next morning, with a major migrane, Marzia in my arms. Dang.. She's so gorgeous. I couldn't remember much, except that there was a lot of kissing.

I opened my eyes, surprised to see where I was. The night was sort of a blur, but I remembered bits and pieces. I felt my cheeks get really hot.. There was quite a bit of kissing last night, I remembered the cab ride. But it didn't go beyond that, and I'm grateful for once I'm not taken advantage of.

"Good morning.." I said softly,letting go of her and sitting up. I went and took a shower and brushed my teeth and stuff. Afterwards, I stepped out and smiled at her. "Wanna go to IHOP?"

During her shower I got ready pretty quick, and I had my hair up in a bun, with a bow in it. And I had a cute summer dress on, it had a black top, with a pink floral skirt that flowed nicely above my knees. "IHOP? What's that?" I asked her, looking up.

I chuckled. "Only the best breakfast place in the world! They have pancakes, eggs, bacon, sausage, coffee, whatever you want." I said. And I swiftly checked her out. "You look cute."

"Pancakes? Bacon?" I said, my eyes getting huge. "Thank you." I said, and I got my black wedges on, they made me even taller.

"Awh come on!" I said, pouting. "I hate being short." We walked to my car and I drove us to IHOP.

I chuckled. "I like being tall." I said, and I watched her drive. How can she do that? I'm terrified of cars. Just being in one made my anxiety spike like mad.

Once we were there, I parked and smiled at her. "Here we are!" We got out and once inside, we got a table and I ordered a coke and chocolate chip pancakes with a side of bacon.

I smiled once she pulled up, I've never been to a place like this, or any restaurants what so ever. I always made my own food at home.
Once inside, I ordered the same thing, since she insisted it was the best, and when I got it, it felt like my tastebuds were on bursting with flavor.

I grinned at her face. "That's the face of pure ecstasy I love so much." I teased with a chuckle and I began to eat the delicious breakfast.

"Ecstasy? What does that mean?" I asked, I mean I didn't know every English word. She still had to teach me some bad words, and in return I would teach her some Swedish ones.

I chuckled. "It means extreme pleasure." I said, then we ate and talked and I taught her more words. "Oh shit.. My ex Tessa is over there.. Stupid bitch.."

I raised my eyebrow at her explanation, and smiled. And when she said that, I looked over at the girl. What a loss for that girl, losing someone like Lavender. "Should I go talk to her in Swedish? Watching their expressions are so worth it." I said, hoping the offer was tempting

I laughed. "I dare you. It'll be priceless." I said, giving her a "go ahead" smile.

I chuckled and I stood and walked over to the girl. "Hej. Du är en idiot va? ja?" I asked her, smiling and nodding. I was giving the impression that I was being nice. If only she knew the words. "Du gillar att spene människor dåligt också, eller hur? ja?" I asked her, watching as she nodded, faking a smile, looking confused still. "Du är en sjuk jävel." I said, more venom in my voice, the. I walked away and sat back down, and started laughing. "She agreed to me calling her an idiot, and she also agreed to treating people badly." I said.

I laughed. "How very right you are." I said. We finished breakfast and as we walked out I looked back at Tessa and she shot me a bewildered look. We went back to the dorm. "So.. What do you wanna do?"

"I don't know. Maybe we could.." I thought for a moment. Make out? Woah. Where did that come from?.. "Well I do have to ask you something.."

I smiled and sat on my bed, crossing my legs. "Alright. What's up?" I asked, tilting my head slightly to the side.

"The nights at the club . You know what I'm talking about.. Do they mean anything to you?.. Do you see any glimmer of potential?.."

Her question made me a little uncomfortable also. "Listen, Marzia.. It did mean a lot to me. I've never felt anything like that before.. I just have trouble when it comes to committing because relationships like Tessa always seem to happen to me. Im scared of hurting you.. And also.. You just realized you're a lesbian. What if this grows and there's a point where we have sex and you end up not liking girls at all?"

I looked down after she answered, and I twirled my fingers in my lap for a little while before coming up with a response, smiling slightly. "That's fine, it really is. I didn't mean to come off so.. Strong, I really didn't. I regret asking, and putting you on the spot .. But I just want you to know, my intention would be to stick with someone, only if they stuck with me as well.. Just. Forget I said anything." I said softly, looking down throughout my weak response

I slowly got up and walked over, sitting next to her and taking her hand. "You deserve exactly that." I said softly. "And I would want nothing more than to give that to you.. I just.. Don't know if I'm the right girl.."

I turned my head slightly away from her when she sat by me. "I don't want to be lead on anymore then.." I said, then I looked at her. "Maybe just friends is how this should stay.." I said, it feeling a little painful to do so.

"You think I was leading you on?.." I asked softly, and I let go of her hand. "Fine." I got up and left the room, going outside to my car. I'm pretty upset, and I don't like showing people I'm upset.