Cautious Love

I looked down at my phone, and I picked it up, seeing her text. I didnt reply. I just changed my shirt, longer sleeved and I let my hair down, thinking it looked better that way.. and I headed to her home, knocking on her door. Her parents werent home..

I walked downstairs and opened the door, letting her in. "I turned my phone off last night." I whispered.

I nodded slowly, stepping in. "I know.." I said, looking down at the floor. Why did she want me over?..

I crossed my arms and stared at her. "What did you do to yourself?"

I took a shaky breath, and I pulled my sleeve up, shpwing the cuts.. "Im sorry..." I said, tears filling my eyes..

I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her tightly. "Don't cry.." I whispered.

I hugged her tightly, my face burying in her neck. "Im sorry..." I kept whispering, remembering the disappointed look in her eyes.

"Stop apologizing." I mumbled, closing my eyes.

I took a deep breath, and I slowly pulled away, I looked down at the ground , not sure what to say.. I then slowly looked up, our eyes meeting.

I looked into her beautiful eyes and I sighed, gently taking her hand.

I squeezed her hand. And I felt my heart begin to race. "Why.. did you want me over?" I asked softly.

I looked down. "Because I missed you." I whispered.

"I.. missed you too.. alot.." I said softly. "Lets.. sit.." I said, walking to the couch, still holding her hand.

I followed her and sat down with her, watching her. I still felt so bad..

"What do you want to do.. with this." I asked her, and I looked at our hands to get the point across.

I looked away and sighed. "I don't know."

I frowned, and I sighed also.. this was awkward.. very awkward. "I.. want to give us a chance.." I said, looking at iur hands.

I looked into her eyes. "Don't you want to be with someone more emotionally stable?" I whispered, my heart sinking at the thought of her being with someone else.

"I want to be with someone whos been through alot, like me.. and thats you. I can relate to you.." I said softly, looking back up into her eyes.

I gently brushed her hair from her eyes and smiled gently. "Okay." I whispered.

Her touch was always so gentle.. I smiled slightly and looked down at her lips.. then back into her eyes.. I slowly leaned in, inch by inch..

I watched her, my heart pumping faster every time she moved closer to me. I slowly closed my eyes and leaned in the rest of the way, kissing her lips softly.

My heart was racing.. was this really happening? I kissed her back slowly, the way her lips felt on mine were perfect.. I slowly rested my hand in the side of her neck, deepening the kiss slightly.

I was blushing furiously as we kissed, my hand resting on her knee, rubbing small circles. I tilted my head to the side slightly so I could deepen the kiss a little more.

I moaned softly, and our lips continued to move in a passionate sync. I slowly pulled away after a while, needing some air.. I grabbed her hand and squeezed it. "Wow.."

I smiled and nodded, looking down at our hands. That was one of the best kisses I've ever had..

"That was amazing.." I added. I glanced at the time, seeing it was around the time for dinner.. "How about, we go out for dinner tonight?"

I nodded. "Okay..." I answered. I kissed her hand before getting up and going to my room to get ready.

"You dont have to be too fancy." I said, before she went to her room. Maybe we would.go to Sharis, Dennys.. or wherever she wanted. I grabbed my bag and I redid my makeup, and braided my hair in a side braid.

I got dressed into something a little nicer. Jeans and a nice green blouse, then I washed my face and did my hair and makeup. I didn't look dreadful anymore. I let my fingers stray on the necklace Madeline gave me. Should I take it off? I shook my head and left it on, walking out and meeting her downstairs.

I was glad the clothes I was already wearing looked decent , and when she came down I smiled, and I took her hand and walked out to my car with her.

I got in the passenger side and I put my seatbelt on, looking over at her. "Where are we going?" I asked.

I buckled myself in and I started the car anf put it in gear, and began to drive. "Well, how about Sharis?" I asked, glancing at her.

I shrugged. "They don't have that where I'm from. What does it have?" I asked.

"Amazing sandwiches, steak.. and the pie.. the pie is amazing." I said, smiling.

I smiled. "Alright." I answered, taking the hand she wasn't driving with.

I smiled, and pulled into the parking lot and let her hand go and I waited at the front of the car for her.

I got out and walked with her inside, grabbing her hand and interlacing our fingers. Let's see if she passes the publicity test.

When we walked in, I liked the stared we got, even the disgted looks, it just made me laugh. The waitress was nice, and got us a nice booth. We ordered our drink, and when she walked away, I smiled over at her.

I smiled and took a sip of my water. "There's a lot of harshness involved with being with a girl.. Think you can handle it?" I asked.