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"I thought I lost you.. The last thing I remember is him pointing the gun at you ." I said, tears filling my eyes. "I blacked out not knowing if I was going to wake up. And if I did , if you would be there.." I said, wiping my eyes. "Im scared Astoria. I'm so scared."
I leaned down and kissed the tears away. "He ran out of bullets." I whispered. "It's okay. I'm okay, but most importantly, you're okay." I whispered. I looked into his eyes. "I promise."
"Okay.." I said softly .. She was so calming.. "Sit with me " I said. This was a huge hospital bed. I moved slightly, and groaned in pain.. "Please." I said..
I slowly and cautiously sat with him, my hand resting on his knee softly. I hate seeing him in so much pain.
"You know .. I blacked out when they took me back.. I believe I died Astoria.." I said softly. "It was so peaceful.. I saw my mom.. She told me she loved me, and she told me to go back.. Then I woke up, they had got done shocking me.." I said, rubbing her leg softly.
"I'm glad you got to see your mom Angus.." I whispered. "Now you know that she's at peace, wherever she is." I gently took his hand and squeezed it.
I nodded slowly. "Yeah.." I said. "I'm tired.." I said softly, and I took her hand and closed my eyes. My recovery was just starting ..
"Okay baby.. Get some rest.. I'll be right here when you wake up." I kissed his forehead and watched as he fell asleep. We never get a break.. Something always happens to us..
I fell asleep, and I slept for so long, I woke up the next morning, my body felt numb. Must be some new pain medication. "You're up, you're going to try to walk today, alright?" The nurse said, smiling at me.
"Already?" I asked the nurse. "But he just went into surgery.. Shouldn't he recover first?"
"Its good to get him at least to stand for a few moments, to bed the blood rushing more." She said. She rose the bed so I was sitting up, and my body still was pretty numb, she helped me swing my legs over and she got a walker, and put it in front of me, and helped me stand. My body was shaky and unstable..
I watched, my heart clenching. I feel so bad.. And there's nothing I can do to help.. Just to stay by his side and support him the best I can.
"I can't.." I said softly, using all my strength was not enough. I sat back down, sighing..
I sighed and kissed his cheek sympathetically. "It was your first try. It'll just take time. You'll get there."
"What if it never happens.." I said gently. She would be stuck with me, a cripple for a young husband..
"It will. I promise." I said, pecking his lips. "Don't give up hope. You never gave up on me, so don't you dare give up on yourself."
I nodded slowly. "Okay.." I said. "I won't." I said. And for the next few days I worked hard every day, until I stood and was walking.. "Wow.." I said taking the steps. I felt as if I didn't need the walker, and I slowly let go and walked without it hesitantly
Me and the nurse stayed close in case he fell, but he was walking beautifully. I grinned at him. It's like a miracle!
It didn't last for long, because I had to sit back on the bed fairly quick as the pain came back. But this was good! As soon as I thought that, the nurse had to re dress my bullet wounds..
I didn't like the sight of blood very much so I didn't watch, I just tightly held Angus's hand in support.
I looked down, the three bullet wounds would leave some pretty big scars. And there was a large one going down the middle of my chest. God.. She wouldn't want me after this... When she was done, I was a bit in shock.
I looked over at him afterwards. He looked upset. "What's wrong?" I asked gently.
"I'm tore up... I'm going to have so many scars..." I said aoftot. "I'm sorry.." I said, afterwords.
I frowned and took his hand. "Why are you apologizing?" I asked.
"What if you don't feel the same for me after you see all those scars?" I said softly. "I'm like a Frankenstein.."
I stared at him for a moment, then I smiled and kissed him. "I'll always want you baby.. I didn't marry you because of your body. I married you because I love you so much. That won't change."
I kissed her cheek softly, and I nodded. "Okay.." I said gently, Taking her hand.. "I love you too.." I said after a little. "I just want to go home.."
I nodded. "I know you do.. It'll just be a little while longer.." I kissed his forehead.
A week passed, and I was finally allowed to go home. I couldn't lift anything, strain myself, run, bend.. I couldn't do anything!
I knew how frustrated he must feel, but I stayed with him and supported him. Eventually he'll be able to be normal again.