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I took a shower as well real quick, and brushed my teeth really well. It sobered me up a bit. I wore some shorts and a tank top, and I laid beside her, smiling shyly..

I smiled back. She's so cute when she's shy. "Are you nervous or something?" I asked, my words slightly slurred, my fingertips tracing her arm.

"No." I said, and I moved closer to her, pulling the blankets over us. I was freezing. I wasn't joking when I said I got cold . . but she was so warm...

I smiled and wrapped my arms around her, pulling her close and taking in the sweet scent of her body wash.

I cuddled right up to her, sighing contently. She was so soft, and her smell was amazing.. I closed my eyes soon after, knowing my really sober self in the morning would be blushing like mad

I woke up the next morning, with a major migrane, Marzia in my arms. Dang.. She's so gorgeous. I couldn't remember much, except that there was a lot of kissing.

I opened my eyes, surprised to see where I was. The night was sort of a blur, but I remembered bits and pieces. I felt my cheeks get really hot.. There was quite a bit of kissing last night, I remembered the cab ride. But it didn't go beyond that, and I'm grateful for once I'm not taken advantage of.

"Good morning.." I said softly,letting go of her and sitting up. I went and took a shower and brushed my teeth and stuff. Afterwards, I stepped out and smiled at her. "Wanna go to IHOP?"

During her shower I got ready pretty quick, and I had my hair up in a bun, with a bow in it. And I had a cute summer dress on, it had a black top, with a pink floral skirt that flowed nicely above my knees. "IHOP? What's that?" I asked her, looking up.

I chuckled. "Only the best breakfast place in the world! They have pancakes, eggs, bacon, sausage, coffee, whatever you want." I said. And I swiftly checked her out. "You look cute."

"Pancakes? Bacon?" I said, my eyes getting huge. "Thank you." I said, and I got my black wedges on, they made me even taller.

"Awh come on!" I said, pouting. "I hate being short." We walked to my car and I drove us to IHOP.

I chuckled. "I like being tall." I said, and I watched her drive. How can she do that? I'm terrified of cars. Just being in one made my anxiety spike like mad.

Once we were there, I parked and smiled at her. "Here we are!" We got out and once inside, we got a table and I ordered a coke and chocolate chip pancakes with a side of bacon.

I smiled once she pulled up, I've never been to a place like this, or any restaurants what so ever. I always made my own food at home.
Once inside, I ordered the same thing, since she insisted it was the best, and when I got it, it felt like my tastebuds were on bursting with flavor.

I grinned at her face. "That's the face of pure ecstasy I love so much." I teased with a chuckle and I began to eat the delicious breakfast.

"Ecstasy? What does that mean?" I asked, I mean I didn't know every English word. She still had to teach me some bad words, and in return I would teach her some Swedish ones.

I chuckled. "It means extreme pleasure." I said, then we ate and talked and I taught her more words. "Oh shit.. My ex Tessa is over there.. Stupid bitch.."

I raised my eyebrow at her explanation, and smiled. And when she said that, I looked over at the girl. What a loss for that girl, losing someone like Lavender. "Should I go talk to her in Swedish? Watching their expressions are so worth it." I said, hoping the offer was tempting

I laughed. "I dare you. It'll be priceless." I said, giving her a "go ahead" smile.

I chuckled and I stood and walked over to the girl. "Hej. Du är en idiot va? ja?" I asked her, smiling and nodding. I was giving the impression that I was being nice. If only she knew the words. "Du gillar att spene människor dåligt också, eller hur? ja?" I asked her, watching as she nodded, faking a smile, looking confused still. "Du är en sjuk jävel." I said, more venom in my voice, the. I walked away and sat back down, and started laughing. "She agreed to me calling her an idiot, and she also agreed to treating people badly." I said.

I laughed. "How very right you are." I said. We finished breakfast and as we walked out I looked back at Tessa and she shot me a bewildered look. We went back to the dorm. "So.. What do you wanna do?"

"I don't know. Maybe we could.." I thought for a moment. Make out? Woah. Where did that come from?.. "Well I do have to ask you something.."

I smiled and sat on my bed, crossing my legs. "Alright. What's up?" I asked, tilting my head slightly to the side.

"The nights at the club . You know what I'm talking about.. Do they mean anything to you?.. Do you see any glimmer of potential?.."

Her question made me a little uncomfortable also. "Listen, Marzia.. It did mean a lot to me. I've never felt anything like that before.. I just have trouble when it comes to committing because relationships like Tessa always seem to happen to me. Im scared of hurting you.. And also.. You just realized you're a lesbian. What if this grows and there's a point where we have sex and you end up not liking girls at all?"

I looked down after she answered, and I twirled my fingers in my lap for a little while before coming up with a response, smiling slightly. "That's fine, it really is. I didn't mean to come off so.. Strong, I really didn't. I regret asking, and putting you on the spot .. But I just want you to know, my intention would be to stick with someone, only if they stuck with me as well.. Just. Forget I said anything." I said softly, looking down throughout my weak response

I slowly got up and walked over, sitting next to her and taking her hand. "You deserve exactly that." I said softly. "And I would want nothing more than to give that to you.. I just.. Don't know if I'm the right girl.."

I turned my head slightly away from her when she sat by me. "I don't want to be lead on anymore then.." I said, then I looked at her. "Maybe just friends is how this should stay.." I said, it feeling a little painful to do so.

"You think I was leading you on?.." I asked softly, and I let go of her hand. "Fine." I got up and left the room, going outside to my car. I'm pretty upset, and I don't like showing people I'm upset.

This was not how I wanted things to go at all.. I watched her leave, and I laid back on the bed, and curled up, and just stayed like that... What do I do?...

I just drove around and tried to get her out of my mind but I couldn't. I heard sudden honking and then the next thing I knew I was spinning. Someone hit the edge of my car, then I got t-boned. Then I got hit head on. The car finally stopped and my vision was fuzzy and I couldn't hear much. I heard yelling, then there was a man there, asking if I was okay. I nodded vaguely and I heard something about the jaws of life and I felt a lot of pain in my chest,legs, and head.

I heard lots of sirens and racket outside down the road, and Lavender was gone for quite long while .. I stood up from the bed and I headed outside and down the road, and I froze... It was Lavendrs ccar.. I tried to run to it, but I was blocked off. "Tell me she's okay! Please tell me she's okay!.." I was yelling

"Don't move her, or you could kill her!" I heard a perimedic yell and they finally managed to open the car and check me out. Then they cautiously got me on a stretcher. "My head..." I groaned. I could see stars.

When I saw her being put on the stretcher. "Lavender!... Lavender!.." I couldn't do anything, me being held back still. I felt so much guilt. If I hadn't had said what I did, she wouldn't have driven off .. I eventually just fell to my knees, a major anxiety attack upon me.

Once in the hospital, they took me to the ER and I blacked out. When I woke up, the doctor told me I broke a few ribs and my legs were a little strained and I had a concussion, but it was a miracle I was alive.

I was anxiously waiting to hear anything.. It was a Sunday, and even the cab company was closed today, and they wouldn't let me get in the Ambulance with her. Guess who walked several miles to get here?.. "Mar..Zia?" He doctor badly pronounced as he walked in the waiting room. I jumped up and quickly walked over to him and followed as he led me to the room, updating me on her injuries.

I heard a soft knock on the door and the doctor's voice. "You have a visitor." I opened my eyes and watched as Marzia came in. "Hey.." I said softly.

I felt tears come to my eyes, it was so scary seeing her on this bed. I held them back and touched her shoulder gently. "Are you okay?" I asked her gently, brushing some hair from her face.

I nodded. "Yup. I'm great." I answered with a sigh, closing my eyes at her touch. "I've been in worse wrecks. I'll be fine, don't worry."