Cautious Love

I was surprised, and I smiled slightly and took a bite. "Of course " I said, and I leaned up and kissed her lips lovingly. "Today will be better, I promise." I said

I smiled and pecked his lips. "Good." I replied and i went to go take a shower.

"Be careful." I said softly. I walked downstairs and I washed the dishes and just cleaned up around the house, sneaking in another a cigarette quickly and making sure I didn't smell like smoke when I walked back in, and I had strong breath mints on me so that helped. I know its bad.. But this stress that is piled on me I can't take sometimes

I smiled and pecked his lips. "Good." I replied and i went to go take a shower.

(Repost xD)

I finished my shower and then got dressed and went downstairs. I then called my dad and told him about the engagement and he was happy for us.

Bad news and good news were back to back. I was still lost in being depressed and ecstatic. But depression was sinking in the deepest.

I could tell that Angus wasn't happy. I wish he would at least try.. I just can't wait to get this surgery over with.

I came up behind her and hugged her to my chest. And I kissed her neck, smiling. I had trouble try to be happy, I had to be strong for her, no wimpyness.. "What time is your doctors appointment tomorrow?" I asked her.

"8." I answered, glancing back at him. I then got a call from Alyssa and she wanted me to watch her baby for a while. She brought him over and left him with us. He's about 9 months old. I held him in my arms and rocked him until he stopped crying. I'm really good with kids.

The baby was adorable, I loved kids, I really did. I was food with them also, but I let Astoria do all the work, since she really wanted to also. "You're changing diapers." I said. Last time I changed a baby's diaper, I found out what pee tasted like.

I giggled. "Oh no honey, you have to do it sometimes." I answered. I made a comfortable pallet on the floor and the baby soon fell asleep. "He's so precious.." I said softly.

"Sometimes.." I said with a quiet laugh, seeing the baby was asleep. "Yeah .. He is.." I said, sitting by her. I hoped this was us someday.. With a kid,

I looked up into his eyes and smiled. "I hope this surgery works. Because I want a family someday.." I looked down. "Do you?"

"It will.." I said softly, and I kissed her temple. "And. Yes, I do want a family." I said, a smile forming on my lips, a real one, "And it will happen, alright?" I said, I wanted to stay positive with the surgery.

I nodded slowly. "Alright.." I answered and I kissed him softly. I then groaned in pain and I got up and went to the bathroom.

I quickly followed and waited outside of the door.. Then I got her some water and walked back to the door, "Hey.. You okay babe?"

"Yeah.." I groaned, and I sat on the top of the toilet, breathing deeply.

"You're lying.." I said softly. Could she wait 4 weeks?.. "I'm calling your doctor.." I said, pulling my phone out.

"No.. Please.." I said. "Im fine. The doctor said I'll be in pain sometimes. We'll see what they say tomorrow.."

I almost pressed call, but I sighed, and pout it down. "The surgery needs to be sooner.. If you're in this much pain.."

I sighed. "Alright." I answered. I got up and opened the door before stepping into his arms. I hate this.. It hurts so much. I just want to be put out of my misery.

I hugged her to me, and I kissed the top of her head, then pulled back and handed her the water. Then I smelled this dreadful stench. The baby. "Not it."

I rolled my eyes. "You loser." I went and changed the diaper before feeding him his bottle.

"A loser who is not changing a diaper." I said, sticking my tongue out at her as she walked off. I went outside and mowed the lawn, and did some other things to pass some time, until dinner was rolling around

I got dressed pretty nicely and told my mom to do the same. We went to Olive Garden and we sat down and had a nice chat.

"Now, was there something you wanted to tell me?" She asked us, and I looked at her and smiled. "We are Engaged." I said

I showed my mom the ring and she squealed in delight and hugged us both. "I'm so happy for the both of you!"

"Thank you, it means a lot." I said , smiling. I hugged her and I smiled at Astoria. Then question is, when do we have the reception?

We finished eating, and went home. I went and washed off my makeup and got in some comfortable pajamas. As I was walking down the stairs, I felt a very intense sharp pain and I gasped, grabbing onto the rail and slowly sinking down onto the steps. Tears stung my eyes as I tried not to cry out.