College Life

I shook my head, ordering a really strong drink. "Fuck that bitch." I mumbled, taking a gulp.

"Hey..."I whispered softly, rubbing her hip,"Don't let it ruin your night, okay? We came to have fun."

I looked down at her and smiled. "You're right." I glanced up and smirked. "I think that girl you were talking to earlier wants you." I said softly.

"Okay, if you need me just look around,"I said with a smile, kissing her cheek playfully before going back to my new friend. She took my hand, leading me to the dance floor. She moved around and held me hips, grinding my backside into her.

I drank for a little bit, talking to a few people, but not really getting my flirt on. I looked up and watched Amy with her new friend and I felt a surge of jealousy in the pit of my stomach. I clenched my drink a little too hard, because it shattered in my hand. I apologized to the bartender and went to the bathroom to wash up. What if they hooked up?..

I heard the small shatter as glass hit the floor and looked up, watching for Jez. I caught a glimpse of her rushing to the bathroom and excused myself, following her in."Jez, you okay?"

I looked up at her and smiled. "Yeah! I'm fine. I just squeezed the glass too hard." I said reassuringly. "Fun place isn't it? That girl you're with, she's cute. I told you you would get some game." I said with a chuckle.

"Come on now, I'm just having fun,"I said with a smirk, washing my hands and turning to her,"You want to go dance with me?"

"Ah, no.. I'm fine. Go have fun. I hurt my ankle a minute ago." I said, drying off my hands. I squeezed her shoulder. "You look really good, show it off and... Have fun." I smiled and walked out, going to find Damian.

I sighed and watched her go. I walked out and my friend, Annie, found me soon enough. We sat down for more drinks, talking and having fun. I kept watching Jez, though.

I sat with Damian and we talked and drank. I was pretty drunk, but not wasted. "Oh, I thought that Amy girl was your new girlfriend." He said. I shook my head. "No. Just a friend." Damian smiled. "Well, she's obviously having fun. You should do the same."

Annie eventually grabbed my chin, turned it away from Jez, and pulled me in for a kiss, her hand moving to the back of my head and stealing a deep, passionate kiss. I pulled away, breathless. How could she? "Stop worrying about her... She's not interested in you..."

I saw the kiss right when it happened. I sighed and looked away. "You're right." I told Damian. I went and flirted with a few girls, but i couldn't put much heart into it. I even made out with a girl in the corner. "Enough.." I said, pushing her away. I didn't care where Amy was now. I went outside and smoked a cigarette, taking only 4 pills this time.

After Annie kissed me, I had to walk away... It didn't feel right. I couldn't find Jez, so I sat at the bar, only having a water this time, I was feeling a bit lightheaded from all the alcohol. I rested in the corner, comfortable, turning away suitors and women alike.

I was pretty lightheaded. I went back into the club and I saw Amy's friend, but no Amy. I frowned and found it extremely difficult to find her in this crowd. I saw her, but then I saw someone going to flirt with her. Tessa.

Tessa plopped down next to me and I have her an odd look, which wasn't enough. She traced her fingertip down my arm and I pulled away,"I'm not interested..."
"Come on, I know you like girls, you were all over that other one!" She pouted and batted her eyelashes.
"Well, I'm not interested in you..." I pulled away. She moved closer.

I watched, anger boiling up in me. What the hell.. I walked over and glared down at Tessa. "No one wants you AIDS Tessa.." I said rudely. She smirked up at me. "You mean the ones you gave me?" I laughed. "You wish." I glanced at Amy. "Leave her alone."

"Oh, is she your new whore? I didn't know, I want her even more,"her hand ran up my thigh and I pulled away. She opened her mouth for another snarky remark but suddenly her face turned green and she leaned over, puking right across my lap.

"Oh gross." I groaned, shoving her off of Amy. I grabbed a towel and helped Amy to the bathroom. "I have some of your new clothes in the car." I told her. I went and got a cute outfit, and I brought it back to her.

"I'd rather just go take a shower, I'm done here anyways,"I said as I began to change, we were in the large stall.

I sighed. "I'm sorry about Tessa.." I said with a frown, looking away as she changed.

"It's fine, I'll be fine,"I stuffed my dress into the shopping bag she brought my fresh outfit in, looking up at her,"Are you okay Jez?"

I nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine. I can take you home." I said, shifting uncomfortably.

"Okay, I'd appreciate it..."We walked out and got into the car, an eerie silence lingering. I turned to her,"Tall to me Jez... You're tense."

"I'm fine." I answered, starting the car. "Tessa just overwhelmed me, that's all." I added. I pulled out and began to drive towards her college.

The ride was silent and the car smelled of like. I felt nauseous. When we got to campus I turned to face her once more,"Come up with me?"

I nodded. "Okay." I got out with her and I walked her to her door. "Here you are." I said with a smile, pushing my hair back.

"Thank you, for everything today,"I said as I opened my door and set my bags inside. I turned to look at her, our eyes meeting for a moment. I felt like... There had to be something...

I looked into her eyes and I felt a pain in my chest. I felt like I could cry. I smiled and touched her shoulder. "No problem.." I dropped my hand. "Well, see you." I turned and walked to my car, getting in and starting it. I mentally slapped myself. I'm so stupid.

I sighed and leaned against the door of my room. Was I really that undesirable? I kicked my shoes off and stripped down to nothing, wrapping in a towel and pinning my hair up. I would shower as soon as I got my clothes put away.

I drove home and took a shower and went straight to bed. The next day I had an audition for a musical, and I ended up getting the role of Christine from Phantom of the Opera.

I sat in my room after class, flipping through a food network mag anise. I was tired, but bored. I wanted Jez... I wanted to love her one day, to get the chance... But I couldn't.

Rehearsals were vigorous so I didn't get to have much free time. After rehearsals, I texted Amy. Hey.. Wanna hang out?

Sure! Where and when?

Anywhere and whenever!

You pick, I'm free to tonight.

Well, we can go to the movies, if you want.

Sure, come pick me up?

I got dressed in nice blue jeans and a plaid tshirt and I kept my hair down. I put on a little eyeliner and then I drove to pick her up.

I wore a grey hoodie and a pair of black shorts, opening the door when she knocked. My wallet and keys were in my pocket and I stepped out,"Hey there."