Childhood Friends Turn Into Sweethearts?

I closed my eyes and I kissed him for a few moments before I slowly pulled away and looked up into his eyes. "I promise. ." I whispered, tears in my eyes.

I smiled slightly at her promise comment, and I saw the tears in her eyes, and when they fell, I kissed them away. "Hey, how about we have some chocolate chip pancakes?" I said. "Maybe help make them?" I asked, it would hopefully get her mind off liam, hopefully for at least a couple seconds,

"Okay.." I whispered. I slowly got up and followed him to the kitchen. We made pancakes and I tried to keep my mind off of Liam. Every once in a while I would put my hand on my empty stomach, wishing he was still there.

I stuck my finger in the batter and poked her nose with that same finger. I chuckled and kissed her cheek. "Babe.. Tomorrow I have to go in and start chemo again.." I said softly, it was all bad timing. I wish I could cancel it, but I had to do it if I didn't want to get seriously sick again.

I sighed and wiped the batter off of my nose with a towel. It's horrible.. We lose our baby and then Paxton is going to be back in chemo. He'll be weak and sick all the time again and there's nothing I can do to help. Is there not a light in the end of this darkness. I nodded slowly and I hugged him gently, closing my eyes. "Okay.."

"But Babe.. it won't be as bad as last time, I'll take the chemo better than last time." He said and he kissed her cheek softly. "I love you, okay?«

I looked up at him and held him close, nodding slightly. "I love you too.." I whispered. I leaned up and kissed him gently for a few moments before I slowly pulled away and went to go lay down on the couch.

The rest of the day was quiet, a few words here an there, But mostly a deadly silence.. I sat on the floor in Liams room by myself, holding my head in my hands. This was the worst thing that's ever happened to me since my parenta died. Tears filled my eyes just tthinking about it..

I saw him in Liam's room and I slowly walked up behind him. I got on my knees and wrapped my arms around his neck from behind, burying my face in his neck. How long will we be hurting like this? It's killing us both.. And then the cancer.. Nothing is going right anymore..

I sighed, my voice shaky, I wiped my eyes, and I looked at her. "Babe, I think we need to go see a counsuler.. " I said, and I pulled her into my lap, and I nuzzle her neck, taking a deep breath, her sweet smell calming me and making me relax.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and I rested my head on his, looking around the room. "No we don't baby.. We need to focus on you getting better now okay?.." I whispered, tears stinging my eyes once again. Look at how I'm talking to him.. Like a mother.. And I'll never get to do that with Liam..

I nodded, and shrugged. "Okay.. let's go to bed.." I said, and I stood slowly, and helped her up. I walked into the bedroom and I pulled her down with me softly, so her back was on my chest. I nuzzle her neck, trying to find comfort..

I couldn't sleep because I already took so many naps and he couldn't sleep either. I sat up and I placed his head on my lap. "Get some sleep babe.. You need to rest for chemo.." I whispered. I began to sing a soft lullaby to him, my fingers stroking his head.

I woke up, seeing she was still awake, I yawned and I slowly laid my head in her lap as she told me to, and I slowly closed my eyes, her beautiful voice taking me to dreamland. I woke in the morning, the alarm clock going off at 7 in the morning, I groaned and sat up.. chemo at 8..

I didn't sleep last night, his head was still in my lap and I was staring off into space. The alarm made me jump though. I looked down and saw that Paxton was awake. I leaned down and kissed his forehead. "Morning.." I whispered.

I looked at her, and smiled. "Morning.." I said, running my hands through my hair. I would be bald soon.. we got really was y and we drive to the clinic to get my chemo, when I was done, I felt normal. But they found something wrong. Three cancer had spread to my hips and it happened very quickly. They said that stress causes it to spread rapidly.. they gave me medication and scheduled a surgery for me in two weeks, I was told to not be so stressed, and I knew that would be hard..

I was terrified for him, but I kept it to myself and tried to be there for him as much as possible. I made him dinner and sat with him, staring off into sleep.

I was worried for the surgery, But it would all be okay.. no stress, right? And the chemo didn't make me sick. I ate my dinner and I watched as she was falling asleep at the table.. I smiled slightly and I stood up and I picked her up and I took her to the bedroom. I laid her down and covered her up, I kissed her lips softly. "I'll be in bed in a little, okay?" I said softly and walked out.

"Mhmm.." I mumbled back, turning in bed, asleep. I dreamnt of Liam again, but it was a good dream.. He was about 5, and he looked like how I would imagine him. I was on one side of the river and he was on the other, and he was waving to me. "I love you mommy, and daddy too! I'll be okay, just be happy." Then he disappeared. I felt.. A little better.

(Aw that's cute c: )

after I showered and ate dinner and I headed to the bedroom and I kissed the back of her neck softly and I hugged her from behind, falling asleep easily, and I didn't dream of anything.. But.. then Liam.. in my dream he was about 10, he looked slot like me, and he had his mother's eyes and smile. "Dad look! I can score a basket now!" He said and threw the ball, making a basket in the basketball court at the park. "Are you proud of me? You know I love you, right?" He said and I opened my eyes, it was late.. I laid there, awake for the rest of the night.. it was so real..

I woke up and turned over, looking into his eyes. He looked shocked. "What's wrong baby?" I asked sleepily.

I looked at her, and I shook my head. "Nothing.. just.. a weird dream." I said, rubbing my eyes.I pulled her close and I kissed her forehead gently. "Sleep, I'll be fine." I said, as I stared at the ceiling still. No stress.. no stress..

I knew what he was dreaming about.. I smiled and kissed his neck. "He loves us baby.." I whispered, looking up into his eyes.

I looked up and I smiled softly. "He does.." I said, and I slowly closed my eyes, and I woke up in the morning. I sat up, and I felt like I was going to be sick.. I jumped up and I ran Roche bathroom, throwing up.. But Nothing came out. Nothing.. just dry heaves..

I woke up and followed him, rubbing his back. Nothing is coming out? How odd.. I frowned and handed him a glass of water.

I coughed and I took a drink of the water, my stomach hurting badly.. I leaned against the wall by the toilet.. "Crap.." I said, holding my stomach. Ive never done that before, having to puke, But Nothing come up , It was painful though. I looked up at her after a moment or two. "Okay.. I'm good.." I said

I stared at him, worried. "Baby.. I think you need to go to the hospital.." I said softly.

"I don't think I can wait two weeks for the surgery.. let's go.." I said, and I stood, wincing at the pain, and falling to my knees.. "I can't stand...it hurts to much.. please, call an ambulance.. " I said softly, keeping the pain in my voice down, I didn't want to scare her.

I ran to the other room and grabbed my phone, dialing 911. The ambulance came a few minutes later and carried him out in a stretcher and I rode in the ambulance with him.

I was soon at the hospital, and I felt two needles go into both my legs at the same time, I yelled out in pain, then blacked out.. I woke up in a hospital room.. what happened ? I looked down to see what the deal was, and I had a bandage on my stomach. What did they do?