Cautious Love

"I killed him. Astoria I'm a killer... Oh my god ..." I said, my face in her neck as I shook my head and was trembling. "Don't leave me please..." I said, trying to calm myself. But I was having a real breakdown ..

"Listen to me baby." I said, making him look me in the eyes. "You are NOT a killer. Your father was a killer. You know what he would have done to me if you didn't shoot him. He deserved it."

I calmed myself, and I looked back at her, and nodded. I looked at her arm, and I took my shirt off, and pressed it to the scrape on her

Soon the cops came and took us to the station to question us. I gave them the evidence, and I still had the mark of the gun on my temple because he pressed it so hard against me.

We were completely cleared on this, and it was easier than I thought to deal with.. Everyone had to get a hotel room for the night so the cleanup crew could take care of him .. Once in the hotel room, I flopped onto the bed, my mind and face blank

I slowly laid down next to him, and propped my head on my elbow, looking down at him. "Are you okay?" I whispered, stroking his cheekbone.

I just looked at her, and shook my head slightly. "Astoria, I'm really not.." I said, sighing.

"I know it must be hard.." I whispered. "And I know you were guilty because you didn't turn him in. But scum like him don't deserve to walk this earth.. Imagine what would have happened.." I kissed his forehead. "And when you both pulled those triggers.. I thought you were going to die.."

"I was so scared.." I said, looking at her. I pulled her into my lap, and I messed with the hem of her shirt mindlessly. "I don't want to think about what would have happened.. It scares me so much." I said softly. "I'm just glad we are all safe .. We have nothing to worry about now.." I said. Itouched the bandage on her arm, taking a deep breath and closing my eyes. She's okay.. She's okay..

"Then don't think about it." I whispered, kissing the top of his head. "Tell me what I can do to distract you." I said softly, running my fingers through his hair soothingly.

"Love me. That's all.." I said, rubbing her sides softly. "What less did he do to you, hon?" I asked, looking up at her.

I frowned. "What do you mean?" I asked, looking down at him and resting my cheek on his head.

"I mean, what else did he do to you? Before I got up there.." I said, my words a bit everywhere here and there. I was just so blank finding words was hard for me..

( lol, really just a typo xD I made it work.)

"Well... I went upstairs.. And I closed the door behind me, and when I turned around, there he was, laying on my bed, the gun pointed at me. Then he told me to lock the door. I went to grab my knife and he jumped up and slapped me, then I dragged me down on the bed by my hair. I don't know what he would have done then.. But we heard your footsteps. That's when he turned off the lights and put us in the corner."

I closed my eyes, and took a deep breath. He's dead, he's gone. "He left that note on the table. He was in the house, the kitchen.. And we didn't know.."

"I don't know how he got in..." I said softly. "Maybe through my window or something.. He might have snuck down while we were wrestling.."

I shook my head, just in disbelief still. "I need my mind off this. ." I said softly after a while. I closed my eyes and rubbed her sides softly. .

I gently rubbed his back. "Tell me what to do for you." I whispered, my heart aching at the sight of him being so miserable.

"You don't have to do anything babe.." I said, looking at her. I pulled her close to me, and I kissed her softly, sweetly.

I kissed him back lovingly, slowly relaxing in his arms. I want to make him feel better and let him know that he is never alone and that I love him more than anything.

After a while, I pulled away and I kissed her forehead, holding her face in my hands. "I love you.." I said. "I just need to rest for a while.. We have a few days here.."

I looked into his eyes and nodded. "Okay.." I whispered. I kissed his forehead, then I laid down and pulled the blankets up.

I took my shirt off, and got dressed in clean sweatpants before laying back down, pulling her tightly to me, then loosening my grip.. I didn't want to lose her.. I was so close to..

I snuggled into him and closed my eyes, sighing softly. "I love you." I mumbled.

"I love you too.." I said before falling asleep, having absolutely no dreams. I was numb, blank.

The next morning, I woke up and kissed his forehead before going and getting in the shower, singing softly like I always do.

I opened my eyes after a while, hearing her heavenly voice in the shower. I smiled slightly, remembering our last time in the shower.

I rinsed out my hair, singing songs from my favorite musicals. I love singing, but I have no chance of a career in it.

I decided to get up, and walk into the bathroom. I undressed, and stepped in behind her. "Hey.."

I jumped in surprise and turned around. "Hi.." I answered with a sweet smile.