I opened the text and I frowned. Why? I sent. I laid back in bed, my eyes red and puffy from all the crying. I had burn marks on my stomach and thighs. It made my whole body numb. They were little tiny burns though, like from a cigarette.
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I opened the text and I frowned. Why? I sent. I laid back in bed, my eyes red and puffy from all the crying. I had burn marks on my stomach and thighs. It made my whole body numb. They were little tiny burns though, like from a cigarette.
I had surprisingly not picked pne cigarette up this whole week.. and I looked at her text and sighed. Im coming over. I sent, not waiting for a reply. I headed to her house and walked in. I had a key. "Autumn."
I looked up and sighed; turning away slightly. "What?" I mumbled:
"Please Autumn, I .. whats that?" I asked, looking at her arm, seeing little burns, I took her hand and looked at them. "Sweetheart. What.. happened?" I asked, immediately becoming worried for her.
I pulled my arm away and looked over at him. "What's that?" I answered, nodding at his bandaged arm.
"Knife accident.." I mumbled, and I got the first aid kit, and I sat by her, taking her arm again. "Let me help." I said sternly, the burns looked to be from a cigarette. I would know. "Where did these come from? Tell the truth." I asked, dabbing some burn cream on them.
"They're yours. I found them in a pile of your laundry." I mumbled. I looked away. "Now it's your turn to tell the truth."
I just continued to dab the cream on her burns, and i looked at my arm. "I sliced my arm open cause I was upset. Thats what happened." I said bluntly, it was something ive never done before too..
I pulled my arm away and I got up, walking to the balcony. I stood behind the rail and I closed my eyes, crying silently. I made him do that..
I followed her. "Listen.. I didnt do that because of what happened.. just when I got home, my dad.. he was being an ass, just things I dont want to get into.. then I did it, not thibking.." I said. "Dont cry. Honey please.." I said, pulling her close to me, and I buried my face in the crook of her neck. "Im sorry.. im so.. so sorry.."
I slowly stroked his hair, hugging him back tightly. "I'm sorry too.." I whispered shakily, my body trembling slightly.
"Shhh.." I said, pulling her to my body, I kissed her neck softly. "I love you so much, okay? No matter what ever ever happens." I said, and I looked into her eyes.
I nodded and I wiped my tears away as I looked into his eyes. "I love you too." I whispered, closing my eyes and leaning into his warm embrace.
"Good.." I breathed, and I hugged her gently to me and I kissed the top of her head. "Why are these burns on you?" I asked.
I closed my eyes and shook my head. I don't wanna talk about it.. "Because I put them there." I answered.
I swallowed hard, and looked down at the floor. "Why.." I asked. I wanted answers..
"Because I was hurting." I answered. I went back to my room and took the cigarettes and lighter from under my pillow, handing them to him.
I looked down at them, guilt filling me. My fault. This was my fault. "Im going to bed.." I said quietly.
(Heading back to bed. Feel crappy.. staying home from school.. ill be back in an hour or two.)
((Okay.. I feel crappy too. I hope you feel better!))
I took a deep breath and turned around, hiding my tear filled eyes. "Why did you come back? You told me to not expect to hear from you again.."
"You know me... I say things I dont mean when im upset. Im sorry.." I said, my voice breaking, and I headed to the guest bedroom and flopped down, closing my eyes.
I laid down and finished treating my burns.. It needs time.
I fell asleep, not easily. And I was not comfortable at all. By my self, or with the tension still present between us. I love her, so much. But. I probably really messed us up this time.
I woke up in the middle of the night and went downstairs, to the kitchen. I fixed a bowl of ice cream and I sat on the couch. I lit a candle so that there was some light and I silently ate my ice cream.
Guilt. Probably the only emotion I felt right now. It was very strong. I opened my eyes, hearing her little footsteps and her heading down the stairs. I just stayed there, she probably didnt want to talk to me still.
I finished my ice cream, and then I blew out the candle and went back upstairs. I twisted and turned, unable to fall asleep. Stupid insomnia..... Only Charnley can help me sleep... I sighed and got up, walking to the guest bedroom. I slowly opened the door and stepped inside. I walked over and crawled into bed with him, resting my head on his shoulder.
I opened my eyes, to see her standing in the doorway. When she laid down with me, I turned to face her, and I wrapped her in my arms, and I kissed the top of her head. Then I closed my eyes
No words needed to be spoken. I closed my eyes and instantly fell asleep, enveloped in his warmth.
I woke in the morning, glad to have her still in my arms. I slowly got up, and made breakfast.. Chocolate chip panca, and bacon. It looked very kiss-up-y.
I woke up, smelling food. I still didn't know what to say to him... I got up and walked downstairs slowly, wincing at the pain in my burns.
I put some whip cream on her pancakes, and I walked over to her, handing her plate to her, looking down. "Bon appetite.."
I gently took the plate from him and nodded. "Thank you." I sat down at the bar and I took a few bites. "It's good."
"Im glad." I said, cleaning the dishes. I wasnt hungry, and I havent been for a few days. Ive only drank water. I walked over, and I rested my elbows on the counter. "You know we will have to talk about what happened soon right?"
I nodded silently, watching him. I wasn't really hungry, but I ate a few bites. My stomach was a little deflated cuz I've only eaten crackers all week.
I watched as she nodded, and I leaned closer to her. "I need you to know that ive been very loyal to you. Okay? And what you saw was a matter of bad timing. She came onto me, and right after I pushed her away. I dont know how she knew where I was. Honest. " I said, pleading.. my voice soft.
I've known him my whole life. I can tell if he's lying or not. I moved the plate and laid my head down on the counter. "I'm so stupid for not believing you the first time..." I whimpered.
I took her hand, and lifted her head up gently with my finger on her chin. "Dont beat yourself up. Please?" I said softly, and I pressed my lips to hers, something I really missed..
I quickly placed my hand on his cheek and kissed him back gently. I pulled away and got up, going around the counter to him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him close, kissing him passionately.
I gently pressed her back to the counter as I kissed her ,my arms sweetly wrapping around her form. I kissed her with so much love my heart felt like it was going to burst
It was so passionate that I had to push him away. I grabbed him again and kissed him with the level of intensity that I could take. I was almost crying because I've never felt so much love.
I was so confused when I was pushed away. But the confusion faded when she pulled my back.. I kissed her sweetly, my tongue dragging along her bottom lip.