Cautious Love

"I'm so glad.." I said softly, and I closed the doors and turned and grinned at her. "Of course." I said, sitting on the bed.

I sat with him and took his hand, lacing our fingers together. I felt a little pained, but I was too happy to notice. "I love you." I said softly.

"I love you too.." I said, and I carefully pulled her into my lap. She's lost weight, and I could notice with how much my arms wrapped around her waist. "Listen.. I will be there when you wake up from that surgery. And you will wake up. I need you to be brave, I know you can. You're the strongest girl I know, that's why you have that ring on your finger. And you will be here to put mine on me at our wedding " I said

I looked up into his eyes and I kissed his cheek. "Okay.." I whispered. I gently touched his cheek. "Just promise me... That if something does happen to me.. Please don't do anything stupid.. Just go and be happy, okay?"

(Awe.)

I looked back at her, taking a deep breath .. I nodded slowly, I had to keep this promise for her. Because what if something did go wrong? "I promise.." I said, touching her hand

I smiled. "That's my boy." I teased and I kissed him softly, my hand grabbing his hand lacing our fingers together.

I kissed her back, lovingly, her lips so soft on mine, the way her delicate body pressed to mine.. Every detail I was taking in, admiring her . she was such a beautiful person, and for a while here on out, she will be very different

After a long moment, I slowly pulled away and rested my forehead against his, looking into his eyes. I let my arms wrap around his neck and I gently gave him little kisses along his cheek and neck.

I rubbed her sides soothigly, and I smiled slightly, her kisses so sweet and gentle. "Let's sleep. We have an early morning.." I said

I sighed. "Okay.." I kissed him softly before getting up and changing into pajamas before laying in the really comfortable bed.

I changed also, sweatpants and no shirt. We laid down and I pulled her body close to mine, admiring it. Next time we would do this would be in the hospital bed..

I smiled and snuggled into him, closing my eyes. "I love you." I whispered.

I kissed the top of her head. "Love you too babe.." I said, and I tried to sleep, but got none.. And before I knew it, our four o clock alarm went off.

I jumped at the sudden noise, and I reached over and turned it off. I wasn't allowed to eat or drink anything before the surgery. I went and got dressed, my heart pounding the whole time.

I got dressed also, and before we walked out, I turned to her, and I held her face in my hands. "Fuck this cancer, you can do this.." I said, a slight smile tugging at my lips.

I nodded mutely, and I hugged him tightly, inhaling his intoxicating scent. I pecked his lips softly and we met my mom at the hospital, who hugged me for 10 minutes straight while crying, then I called my dad for a few minutes.

I let her have family time, and I sat and watched them.. I was nervous, scared.. It was hard to not show it.

After I got off the phone with my dad, I sat with Angus and held his hand tightly until the doctor came and took me to the room to prep me. They got me changed into a hospital gown and they let me lay down for a bit, then they let my mom and Angus in to be with me until the anesthetic made me fall asleep. The last thing I saw was Angus's face, then I was passed out.

I watched as her eyes closed, praying that they would open again.. "I love you.." I whispered, kissing her forehead and watching as they wheeled her away. I felt numb.. They took her ring off and I had it now, surgery precaution. I held it for hours and hours..

At one point I woke up and screamed out in pain and I remembered hearing the doctors yell and seeing a lot of blood before the doctor put me under again.

People were rushing around, running in and out of the operating room down the hall. I felt sick to my stomach . was she okay?

After a long while, I woke up and was very sore. The doctors were grinning. "Welcome back! The surgery was a success!"

"Astoria.." I said, eight away sitting up, and brushing he hair from her eyes, I was happy. So happy... The surgery was done.. And she was fine. But now.. Radiation treatment..

"Hey.." I whispered tiredly, looking up at him. I squeezed his hand and kissed it softly. "I'm okay.."

I kissed her hand and said her ring back on. "Im so proud of you .." I said, smiling over at her mom.

I held my mom's hand and smiled. I had to stay here a for a while to recover. The doctor said I was allowed to eat. "Can y'all get me something?" I asked.

I nodded right away. "Of course, I'll see if they have some bacon." I said, and winked before walking out of the roon .

I called my dad, who was so relieved that he cried. Then I chatted with my mom until Angus returned with my bacon. "My hero." I said, kissing his cheek softly.

I smiled, and helped her sit up and I set the plate on her lap. "My Angel." I said, and pecked her lips gently. "I made sure they made it extra crispy for you."

I chuckled and took a bite. "It's delicious." I said with a smile. I ate quietly and I could see the my mom seemed a little down when she looked at me and Angus. I imagine she misses dad..

(What if her mom and dad get back together? (: could be cute. Or there could be big family drama or something.)

"Tomorrow the doctor will be in to talk about treatment after. Radiation.." I said, just passing on what was said to me

((Awwh! Yeah!))

I smiled weakly and nodded. "Better than chemo.." I mumbled. Suddenly the door opened and my jaw dropped when I saw who came in.. Dad!

I turned to awe her father. What? He's here! "Hey." I said, laughing softly. "Whole family is here." I said.

I gave my dad a sideways hug. "My flight got delayed, otherwise I would've been able to see you before your surgery." He said and he gave me a teddy bear. I grinned. "Thanks dad." He then turned to my mom and they shared sort of an awkward hug.

"You remember my brother Chase right?" I said after a while, looking at her. He moved out a while ago and I think he was 25 now. He never was really around due to his job. "Well he's in town." I said. I loved my brother and all, just he had a rock hard personality

I smiled. "That's great." I said softly. The doctor came in and said I needed rest and that visiting hours were over. Only one person was allowed to stay. "I'll be fine guys." I said softly, leaning my bed down flat. "Really."

One person can stay? I sighed. I didn't want to leave her, I didn't. "I'll go." I said, and kissed her forehead. "Text me in the morning, alright? I'll get some donuts." I said, with a wink.

I smiled and nodded. "Alright." I answered softly. Him and my mother left and my dad stayed for a while, then he went to his hotel and I finally fell asleep.

I didn't sleep too well to be honest, just worrying. I got everything ready for when she got back, I got her new bed stuff, with the help of her mom and just other things that are nice to have around, knowing the radiation will tire her out and such.

After the next few days I started radiation, which wasnt that bad.. It just made me really tired. I slept a lot. And after I got my stitches out, I was allowed to go home. The doctor rolled me out in a wheelchair and I smiled big at my family.