The Knight.

I clutched my favorite pillow to my chest, afraid to fall asleep. My nightmares are extremely vivid. It's rare that I don't wake up screaming.. My parents tried to get me medication, but nothing ever works. Except for Charnley. He's the ultimate medicine..

I couldn't just leave her there.. I got up, and slowly walked into her room. I turned the light off and I crawled in the bed beside her, and I pulled her back to my chest, and I kissed her neck softly. I loved her.. So much.

My back was against his chest, and our legs were bent in a spooning way. Our bodies fit perfectly. I closed my eyes and sighed, the skin tingling where he kissed me. Why did he do that?..

I was soon fast asleep, and very happy she was even letting me in the bed with her at the moment. I hope that tomorrow she will forgive me.. I did feel very bad.

I hardly slept, but when I woke up, my head was on his chest, as usual. I sighed and got up, walking to the bathroom to get dressed.

I stayed in bed after she got up. I was not a morning person at all. She had to practically jump on me to wake me up.

I walked in and grabbed the book from last night, throwing it so it hit his leg. Not enough to hurt him. "Get up..."

"Nooo .." I groaned, and I sighed and sat up. "Whhhaaaht." I whined, rubbing my eyes. I looked at her, my eyes slowly closing again.

I sighed. He's so adorable on the morni- Wait. What? No. Stop. I walked downstairs to make a bowl of cereal.

I got up, before any more books were thrown at me. I slowly walked down the steps and into the kitchen. I made myself some waffles with nutella.

I glanced at him, and then quickly looked away. "It's gonna be hard to quit." I said softly.

"I know.." I said. "But I'm willing to try.." I said, and I looked up, as our eyes met. "I'll just need your help." I said. "Just try to stay on top of me, and if I get stubborn, just remind me that I said this." I said.

I nodded slowly and I finished my cereal before rinsing my bowl out. It was still awkward and a lot of tension, but at least we weren't screaming at each other like last night.

When she rinsed her bowl out, I took her hand."Hey..." I whispered. I hated this tension so much. I looked back at her, deeply into her eyes.. she was just so goddamn beautiful.. "Listen. I know you care about me. Its just when im angry, or upset.. I say things I dont mean. Im very sorry Lilah.." I said gently.

I sighed and squeezed his hand softly. "It's okay. " I whispered. "I'm sorry for attacking you. "

"Its okay.." I said. I really couldnt hold myself back anymore.. I pulled her to me. My arms wrapping around her waist, and I pressed my forehead to hers, and then I pressed our lips together sweetly... it was even better than I imagined..

I was so shocked that I didn't know how to react. But it was so sweet.. I closed my eyes and rested my hands on his shoulders, kissing him back gently.

I kissed her once more, glad that she had responded the way I hoped. My hand gently touched her cheek, then I pulled away slowly. "I.. I... shit. Sorry.." I said, and I quickly let go of her.

"I um.." I looked down, trying not to blush. What the hell? I walked out of the room and went upstairs. I just kissed my best friend.

"Fuck.." Imumbled once she was upstairs. Did I just mess rhings up again?.. was she angry with me? I walked into thr living room, and I laid on the couch.. what just happened..

I felt like I was going to pass out. After a while, I finally went downstairs and approached him on the couch. "Why did you do that? " I demanded.

Crap. I looked up at her, then sat up. "I.." I began, taking a deep breath. "It felt right.." I said, then looked down. "Im sorry.." I said, running my hands through my hair.

I slowly sat down and stared at the ground, my face twisted in confusion. What? Why? How? I felt like my head would explode.

I looked at her, and I tilted her chin up. "Let me be completely honest with you.. ever since last year, ive felt differently about you.. a good different.. and just recently ive figured out what it was.. and. I think im in love with you.." I said, and I waited for her reaction.. "That was so cheesy I cant even."

I looked into his eyes and I almost cried at his words. I gently touched his wrist. "I don't know how I feel yet." I whispered.

"Cause im friendzoned... I get it." I said softly, standing. "Im going home.. call me or text me when you want me to come back.." I said, ill just give her some time..

I stood up and grabbed his hand. "Wait, please.. Don't leave.." I said. I hated the look in his eyes..

I looked at her, and I sighed.. "Okay.. " I said softly, looking down at her hand. I did feel a little hurt, but I tried my best to not show it. I sat back down on the couch..

I sat next to him and frowned."please don't look so sad.." I whispered.

"Sorry.. I'm going to go feed Canada." I said, smiling, and standing. Dont look sad, Dont look sad.. I walked into the dog room theu had made for Canada and I filled her water and food dish. I sat down by her and smiled when she crawled into my lap. A sweet dog.

I sighed. I kept to myself for a while, going to the bedroom to clean up my mess and gather laundry.

I stroked Canada fur, then I noticed.. she wasnt breathing. I shook her lightly. I got up carefully and I checked if her heart was beating. It wasnt.. "Autumn!"

((NOOOO!!!!))

I ran downstairs and gasped when I realized what was going on. "No!" I cried, covering my mouth.

(Shes like 18 years old, lol.. )

I was shocked, this couldnt be happening.. "Autumn.." I said touching her shoulder. "She had a great life.." I said softly, looking down..

"Shut up!" I snapped, tears stinging my eyes. I saw the look of hurt in his eyes and I sighed and wiped my eyes. "I'm sorry.." I whispered.

"Its okay.." I said, and I hugged her softly. "We should let your Mom and Jay know." I said, and I wiped her tears with my thumb.

I sniffled and nodded, grabbing my phone. "Hey mom.. Um.. You might wanna sit down........ Canada died.." I said. My mom started crying, which made me cry harder.

I heard her mom, and I sighed, my eyes even tearing up a bit. I took her hand and lead her to the couch I sat her down, and I handed her a tissue.

I took the tissue and wiped my eyes. I'm not a messy crier. I hung up after a few minutes and I rested my forehead on his shoulder, crying silently.

"It will be okay.. " I said softly, hugging her. . What a great start to the day. "We have to go burry her.."