I stayed outside for a little while, then I went back inside. I walked into the bedroom and noticed he was still awake. I sighed and sat on the edge of the bed, looking down at him. I slowly reached out and rubbed his arm. "I'm sorry..."
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I stayed outside for a little while, then I went back inside. I walked into the bedroom and noticed he was still awake. I sighed and sat on the edge of the bed, looking down at him. I slowly reached out and rubbed his arm. "I'm sorry..."
I watched as she sat on the edge. "It's fine.. just.. forget about It.. " I said softly, looking Away. "Just lay down.. we have a few hours left.. " I said, rolling over, my back to her and I drifted off, into a dreamless, silent dream.
I felt horrible for pushing away the only person I have left. I laid down but didn't sleep. The next morning I got up and took a shower, then I sat outside and wrapped a blanket over me. It was snowing outside.
I woke in the morning, alone in my bed. I stood up and took a warm shower, I looked outside aftef to see that it was snowing. Well Crap. I was going to go in the hot tub.. which you could use all year round. I got dressed and I dried my hair off, and I headed to the kitchen, fixing some hot chocolate. I headed outside, leaving the cups inside. I saw October in the chair, and I frowned. "It's 20 degrees.. I have some hot chocolate inside." I said , my breath visible in the cold air.
I slowly looked up at him and smiled slightly. "Okay.." The cold never really bothered me much. I stood up and followed him inside. I sipped my hot chocolate and I glanced at him. Is he still upset with me?..
I looked down at her arms and I took a drink of the coco. "Your arms okay? " i asked, clearly still worried about them. She looked a little hesitant, maybe nervous around me. Maybe she thought I was mad or something, But I wasn't. It just scared me to see what I saw yesterday, and I still had really pi let processing it.
I looked away and nodded. "Yeah, they're fine." I said softly. I took another sip and sighed. I finished my drink and sat with him. "You look really good, by the way.. Different." I said, blushing slightly.
I looked up as she sat beside me,And I smiled at her words, and once more when I saw her cheeks change color. I scopted closer to her, and overlooked my arm around her, pulling her against me. "You look great too.." I said softly,.looking into her eyes.. our faces were very close.. I could kissher if iI wanted.. But I held back, and looked Away..
I blushed and bit my bottom lip. "Thanks.." I whispered. My heart was racing when our lips were close. I was a little disappointed but relieved at the same time when he looked away.
I couldn't fall in love again.. I really couldn't risk getting hurt again, I couldn't.. "I.. sorry..." I said softly and I looked back at her, and I removed my arm. Love shouldn't matter to me now.. I just need to get her better before I worry about that..
I frowned and tilted my head to the side. "Sorry for what? You have nothing to be sorry about." I said softly. I stood up and walked away to my room, sitting on the bed. He really confuses me..
I know that I'm a hard person to get.. one moment I'm prince charming, the next I'm unsure. It's because I recently got over a bad relationship, she cheated.. got pregnant.. the usual fucked up crap a woman shouldn't do. Did I mention we were engaged? Yeah.. so I have a little trust issues. And my parents went missing, no one could find them.. and to this day, I'm left wondering if they are dead or alive.. I drank my coco, and I he Heller d to her room, and I leaned in the doorway. "I'm going yo the store, want anything? Or do you want to go?" I asked.
I looked up at him and shook my head. "I'll stay here.. Could you get me some Midol PM? It helps me sleep..." I whispered. I looked away from him and laid down in bed, snuggling in the blankets.
I nodded, and I put my phone in my pocket. "Okay.. call if you need anything. " I said, before heading outside and to my car. I soon was at the store I just grabbed something snacks and I got her medecine. I turned, and I ran into what felt like a brick wall. Shit.. I backed you, and looked you, to see Brock there.. he always beat on me, and has since high school. He is just an asshole. Also the guy which got my fiance pregnant. I felt a hard fist connect with my face, and I blacked out, and I woke up on the ground. I groaned, and stood up, butting the stuff back in the basket and just walked Away.. I said for my things and went home.. my cheek hurt bad..
When I heard the door open, I got up and walked to the living room. I gasped when I saw a large bruise on his cheek. I got some ice and grabbed his arm, leading him to the couch to sit down. I gently pressed the ice to his cheek. "What happened?" I asked, looking into his eyes.
I was surprised how quickly she moved and how worried she seemed to be. I followed to the couch and I sat down, wincing when the ice touched my skin. "I got punched.. It's Nothing.. " I said softly, looking into her eyes, what were full of worry. "Remember Brock Lender? Him.." I said and I looked down, I was a little embarrassed But I never fought back with things like that.
I sighed and nodded. "Yes.. I remember him.. He took me to prom and then humiliated me in front of everyone.. Remember?" I asked. I was the laughing stock for the rest of the year. I tilted his chin up and looked into his eyes. "And don't ever say its nothing. Because it is."
I looked up into her eyes and nodded.. "Then I tried to beat him up.. But he just broke my arm..." I said, with a small chuckle.. "But he also got my ex fiance pregnant. Yeah, hes an asshole. " I said, hurt flashing in my eyes at the memory. I moved on quickly before she could question it. "Want to go in the hot tub later?"
I rose an eyebrow. I never knew he was ever engaged. "Um.... Sure..." I put the ice down and sighed. "The swelling will go down." I smiled weakly and got up, going to my room to fold and put away some more clothes.
I looked down and I rubbed my eye, and I felt my cheek. It was cold due to the ice. I grabbed a blanket and covered myself up, and I turned on Duck Dynasty, chuckling to myself at a couple parts.
I took off my bandages and scratched at my cuts. They're craving the blade.. I looked over at my box which held my razors. I grabbed it and rushed to the living room. I put the box on the table and I looked at him, my body shaking. "Stop me. Now."
I immediately stood up, and I took the box, looking at the razors inside. Where did she get that many?! I saw how violently she was shaking and I pulled her into my arms, my arms around her waist securely.. my hand gently ran through her hair and my face wading the crook of her neck. "Hey.. It's okay.. just take a deep breath.. I'm here.." I said softy, kissing her neck gently.
I grabbed his shoulders and squeezed them tightly. I squeezed my eyes shut and took deep, shaky breaths. "It's bad... I just want to die..." I whispered, tears streaming violently down my cheeks.
I shook my head. "Don't say that.. please.." I said, my voice clear with hurt. "I can't lose you.. I just can't.. " I said and I kissed her neck softly once more pulled Away just enough so our foreheads were touching. "Truth is.. I love you.. and.. I want you in my life forever.." I said, and I pressed my lips to hers, a bit salty from her testart.
My eyes widened, and I froze, shocked. But I slowly relaxed and I closed my eyes, kissing him back gently. I rubbed his shoulders gently, my body still trembling slightly. I slowly pulled back and looked into his eyes, still speechless.
I slowly looked down, and unwrapped my arms from her.. "Better?' I asked, and I smiled slightly, blood rushing to my cheeks causing them to tint in color. I looked down at the box, and I picked it up. I had to jst hide it or something..
I nodded and looked away, sighing softly. "Yeah.. thanks.." I watched him for a moment, then I got up and walked to my room, sitting on the bed, my body still trembling. What just happened?..
I've always had a soft spot for, I always had knew I loved her.. and noe I think I just fucked everything up.. when she walked Away I set the box down and headed outside, grabbing my longboard and headimg down the block for a cruise
After a few minutes, I walked back in the living room and noticed Paxton gone. I slowly picked up the box and sat down on the couch. I opened the box and stared down at the sharp razors. I picked one up and studied it, my hands lightly shaking.
I only went around the block a couple times, just to get my mind off what went down and the possibility that just made things weird. I slowly opened the door to my house and sat my longboard up against the wall. I looked up to see the box opened, and October holding a razor and just looking at it. "Put it down.." I said, crossing my arms and leaning in the doorway. Stupid of me to leave them out..