College Life

I chuckled lightly along with her, but I wasn't very amused. When the waitress came back I just ordered what I did last time.

I got a salad and watched her, I could see the look in her eyes and I sighed,"If you don't want me to come around I understand.."

I looked up and quickly shook my head. "Oh no honey it's not that." I said, immediately feeling bad. She must be really down.. Not remembering anything and being pregnant..

"I know it can't be easy for you, losing me and all... I don't want to hurt you,"I said as I sat back.

I looked down and sipped my drink. "It's fine. I'm.. Fine.." I cleared my throat. "Can we.. Change the subject?"

I sighed and sat back, looking around. I nodded slowly, my jaw locked in place,"Okay."

I looked down and played with my French fry. "So.. Did you tell your parents about.. The pregnancy?" I asked.

"Yeah, I kind of had to so they could tell the lawyer,"I said with a nod,"If we can do a paternal test we can determine which man's child it is and then he can be pinned for the rape for sure."

I nodded. "Yeah.." I took a bite of my burger and looked around, there wasnt many people here, thank god.

I sighed and watched her,"So, you act? Your'e an actress?Like, that's what you want to do with your life?"

I nodded. "Yeah.. I want to be on broadway, and movies, and stuff like that." I said, looking up at her.

"That's amazing,"I said with a slow nod,"I bet your name will be in lights within years."

I smiled at her. "I'm glad you think so." I replied. I took another bite of my burger. I am so bad at this.. I'm so scared I'm going to say something to upset her..

"Did you have any idea what I wanted to do?"I asked, looking up at her.

"I didn't know exactly, but I figured it must involved cooking. You're really good at it." I said, sitting back and sipping my coke.

"I was, anyways,"I said with a shrug,"I don't really cook nowadays..."

I frowned and looked up at her. "Why not?"

"Don't have the skills, or resources.. I don't know. No desire, I guess,"I shrugged and poked at my salad mindlessly, not really hungry.

"Maybe one day you'll find your inspiration again." I said softly. I finished my food, then I paid for us since I offered to go out to eat.

I got my salad boxed since I didn't really eat, I wasn't very hungry... I wanted to talk about us, our past and how she wanted to move on... But she wouldn't talk about it.

We walked outside together and we stood there for a moment, sort of awkwardly. "That was nice." I said with a gentle smile.

"It was really nice,"I said with a nod, looking up at her.

I smiled. "So.. When you watch the DVD.. Text me and tell me what you think." I said, looking down.

"I will,"I said with a nod, watching her,"When can I see you again?"

It kind of surprises me that she wants to see me.. Which kind of makes this harder, but also easier. It's weird. "Well.. I'm not sure.. It's my last week next week and I'll be having exams..So, maybe after next week, when I get out for summer?"

I nodded slowly,"Okay.. Just let me know,"I said, hearing the hesitation in her voice. If she didn't want me around I could stop...

I smiled. "I will. Just take care, okay? If you need anything, just let me know." I said, looking into her eyes.

I nodded and sighed,"You too.."I turned, heading towards my car. I was so confused...

"W-Wait." I said, and I jogged over to her. I smiled. "Don't I get a hug?" I pulled her to me, and I gave her a warm hug, letting it last for a few moments, before I reluctantly pulled away.

I hugged her tightly, resting my face into her neck for a moment before she pulled away,"Bye.."

I smiled and backed away, waving at her. "See you." I went and got in my car, and took a deep breath, resting my forehead on the steering wheel. I wish things could be different.

When I got home I went to bed. The time passed slowly. I would go to the store with Mom or out on a drive with Dad, but I didn't have anyone, no one to help jog my memory. My parents didn't know who I was..

That next week was passing by very slowly with exams and what not. Then it was time for graduation. I had sent out invites, and I even sent Amy one, but who knows if she got it or her mom intercepted it? "Can you believe we're graduating?" Sydney asked, as we both looked around the boxed up dorm. "Yeah.." We made our way to the theatre to get dressed in our caps and gowns.

I sat in the crowd with another bouquet of flowers, a fake one hiding in the bunch and a note reading "I'm willing to try this until the last petal dies." I clapped for all the students but cheered the loudest or Jez, and her mother hugged me.

After the speech and stuff, we all went out to the courtyard where everyone was taking pictures. I saw Damian first and he ran up and picked me up, spinning me around. "Congrats girl!" Then my parents came over, my mom crying and clinging to me.

I was behind her parents, and her friends all paused at stared at me,"Hi... I'm Amy.Do I know you all? Any of you? I'm guessing by the looks I probably do.."

My friends all went to re introduce themselves to Amy and hugged her and such. It was sort of sweet. I went and hugged her tightly. "Thanks for coming." I said with a grin.

"How could I miss it? It's nice to meet you all, again,"I said, nodding to everyone. I could see the eyes on the wounds on my face and body, which were still healing. Hal o my ace was actually rather scared.

My parents snapped a quick picture of me and Amy next to each other and I scowled at them. "You could have warned me." I said with a chuckle.

I laughed softly and nodded,"That's okay, we can add it to our albums..."