Childhood Friends Turn Into Sweethearts?

I woke up the next morning and flinched at the slight pain. I sat up and looked around, yawning softly.

I heard movement in the bedroom, and i stood up, heading into the bedroom. "Hey, you okay?" I asked softly, I sat at the foot of the bed.

I nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine.." I replied with a soft smile. I laid back and sighed, looking up at him. "What's up?"

I smiled, and I shrugged. "Well I've watched just about every episode of Fringe last night." I said, with a chuckle. I never really slept, since I had so much energy. "You sleep well?" I asked.

I shrugged. "I guess.." I said softly. I grabbed his hand and squeezed it gently. I was a little sore, but the pain wasn't that bad anymore.

I w was as anxiously awaiting the arrival of Octover, I haven't seen her in two years.. I know her parents just died and honestly I was worried about her and I just overall missed the girl. Her and I talked over Facebook. She has nowhere to go, so I invited her to live with me. I paced around my hallway in my large house, waiting for that knock that could change my life. This could also be me chance with her, to reconnect and be her best friend again.. maybe even more..

"Thanks for the ride.." I told the taxi driver as I grabbed my bags. I watched him drive away before I turned to face the large house. It has been forever since I've last seen Paxton. We were best friends in high school and I've always had the biggest crush on him. Maybe we will end up being... No, that won't happen... I sighed and pulled the sleeves of my jacket down, covering my cuts. I'm such a mess.. I walked to the door and rang the doorbell, my heart pounding.

I rushed to the door, and opened it after taking a breath. I smiled at the beautiful site I saw.. she was georgous.. she really was. "Hey.." I managed to say. I wrapped my arms around her waist into a nice embrace.. my face went in the crops of her neck. "I missed you, Tober.. " I said softly, and let go after a little. "Come inside, I'll show you your room." I said, and I grabbed her bags for her, and shut the door once she was in. I walked down the hallway, smiling back at her as she followed.

The way he hugged me.. As if I may break at any second.. he spoke so softly, so gentle.. I smiled back weakly as I followed him, my footsteps slow and sluggish. When he showed me my room I put my stuff down and sighed, turning to give him a fake smile. "How have you been Paxton?' I asked softly.

When I set her bags down I looked at her and smiled warmly. She looked stressed, and just overall sad in her deminer. "I'm.. just fine." I said, with a shrug, and I looked down, scratching the back of my neck nervously as the hairs stood up giving me goosebumps. "And.. Hey.. I'm really sorry about your parents." I said looking into her eyes, my gaze instantly softening. "And.. I'm here for you now, What's mine is yours.. make yourself at home.. I'm only a shout Away if you need me. And if you need anything, I mean anything.. please, just let me know.." I said, my hand touching her arm softly. She looked as if she was going to break down and cry at any moment, and that pained me beyond words to see her so vulnerable..

I let out a soft sigh and looked up at him, my gaze sad. "T-Thank you.. Paxton..." I whispered. I hugged him tightly, my face in his chest. Tears threatened to fall, but I kept them at bay. I pulled away after a few seconds and I turned away from him quickly, going to the bed so I could unpack. He is just so sweet.. And he's very handsome.. He's always been handsome..

"You're welcome..." I said gently, And when she hugged me my hands instinctively wrapped around her waist, in a firm comforting hug. Her breathing was shaky and uneven, But she didn't fall apart in my arms. She pulled Away quickly after a moment or two and began to unpack, I stood there, and watched her for a few moments. "I'll be in the living room, and like I said I'm only a shout Away.." I said softly, slowly walking out of the room, and I headed to the living room. I glanced at the TV, that was a 75 inch flatscreen. I picked out a comedy and I slipped the disk in and paused it..I looked at the large 'L' shaped couch. I got blankets and pillows set up for the movie, I sat down and grabbed my phone, scrolling through my news feed.

After I finished unpacking, I got on my phone and updated Facebook. 'Just moved in..... I'm really tired..' I got a few likes on it and I turned off my phone. I sat on the bed and took off my jacket, looking at my fresh cuts. They were burning like crazy.. I grabbed a bandage and I wrapped it around my wrists. I put my hair in a ponytail and I went to go join Paxton in the living room. "hey.." I said softly as I sat next to him.

I set my phone down as I saw October walking over. I looked down at her arms. Were those bandages? I looked at her with concerned eyes. "What happened?" I asked her, clearly a bit worried. I moved closer to her and glanced down at them once more. Her body language seemed to change, she looked more tense, and a little nervous.. when she was quiet for a couple moments I figured out what they could be.. "Talk to me.. I'm here now.."

I looked away from him, holding back painful tears. "It's nothing Paxton.. I-I don't want to talk about it..." I whispered. Tears began to stream down my pale cheeks and I turned away, wrapping my arms around my knees. "I'm sorry.." I whispered as I sobbed into my lap.

Paxton.. you fucking idiot.. I frowned once she began to cry, and my heart clenched and when she hugged her knees and began to sob, I pulled her close to me, my arms wrapped around her comfortably.. I hated seeing her so fragile and sad.. "Hey, Hey.. It's okay.. Shh.." I said softly, my hand tracing circles in her back gently. "Forget the movie, we can do that tomorrow.. you need rest.." I said softly.

I shook my head. "I can't sleep... Every time I close my eyes I see them. Their death." I whispered. I looked up into his eyes. "Paxton... I missed you a lot..." I whispered. I wiped my tears away and sighed.

I squeezed her lightly, and I looked into her eyes. "I missed you too, Tober.. you have to try to sleep.. you need it, ." I said softly, and I lifted her up, bridal style. I walked down the hall, past her room and to my master bedroom. I set her on the bed. "You can sleep with me tonight.." I said, looking down. "I mean.. if you want.to..."

I looked up at him and slowly nodded. "Okay..." I slowly sat up and looked into his eyes. "Thanks..." I looked back down and bit my lip. I laid back down and curled up in the blankets, looking at the wall. "I cant believe they're gone..."

I sighed as she curled up, and I took my shutdown off, only left in silk basketball shorts now. I hoped she didn't mind.. I laid in the bed beside her,.and I pulled her back to my chest softly, and I kissed her shoulder sweetly. "I know how you feel.." I said. I haven't talked about my parents to her yet , and I didn't plan to anytime soon..

I turned my head to look up at him. I turned my body so I was facing him and I wrapped my arms around him
"Paxton.. Thank you for being there for me... I... Miss the old days.."

I smiled softly at her words, and I touched her cheek softly, wiping a tear Away with my thumb. "You're welcome.. I miss them too.." I said softly, and I kissed her forehead gently. "Rest, sweetheart.. tomorrow morning we can his outside in the pool if you want.." I said, and I pulled her closer and I slowly closed my eyes, soon in a deep sleep.

I woke up in the middle of a night from a nightmare. I kept reliving my parent's death. I slipped out of his arms and I unwrapped my bandages. I grabbed my razor and sat in the bathroom, running it across my wrist. It's so addicting... So blissfully painful
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I woke up also, bit I pretended to sleep.. and when she got up, I did Aldo, But I made sure I want noticed.. what was she doing? i watched as she walked into the bathroom, and a shiny metal object in her hand.. I knee what it was. When she closed the door, I waited a couple moments, and I walked over and opened the door. I saw her there, the razorblade running across her skin.. "October.. " I wasn't sure if I should be angry, worried, or sad. I immediately took the razorblade and out it in the sink, I grabbed a wet washcloth and I dabbed her cuts, without saying a word..

I flinched and watched him, my body rocking with sobs. "I'm so sorry..." I whispered. I pulled my arm away and grabbed my bandages. I turned away as I put them on. I was in shock. He caught me.. And he has the most saddest look in his eyes..

I didn't understand Why she would harm herself .. it honestly scared the legit Shit out of me. I watched her for a moment before grabbing the razor blade and I walked out of the bathroom, still speechless, I threw it Away, and headed back to the bathroom. I didn't want her to cry.. I really didn't. I pulled her into my arms, into a hug.. I still was lost with what to say..

I hugged him back, unable to stop the tears. I kept apologizing into his chest. I pulled away and stood up. I washed my face then I walked outside, letting the cold air hit my face. He should be upset with me.. I disrespected him..

When she walked Away I followed, giving her some distance also.. when she stepped outside, I joined her. I couldn't stay upset with her, I really couldn't.. I hugged her from behind, and I kissed her neck gently.. "Don't cry.. It's going to be okay.. " I said, resting my forehead in the crook if her neck. "Don't hurt yourself.. "

I closed my eyes and sighed, shaking my head. "You should go get some sleep Paxton..." I whispered. I rubbed his arms that were around my waist and I opened my eyes and glanced at him.

It was clear she just wanted space.. "Right.. sorry.." I said softly and I kissed her shoulder before letting go and heading back inside, to the bedroom. I headed to my room and I laid down and I relaxed, But couldn't find myself to fall asleep..