Cautious Love

"Youre right, I cant.. but I can help you clean that, and make sure it does not happen again. Maybe.. I dont know.. talk to me?" I said, and I grabbed her shoulder gently, and took her to my room.

I sat down on his bed and let him clean my burning wrist. "I already told you what's been going on. I've been getting shit for Angel Face and the abortion."

I looked at her after I bandaged her up, and I sighed.. "What if you do online school for the rest of the year?" I said, looking back down. "You can avoid them that way.. and change your number, make a new Facebook, everything.. just so you cant hear their shit." I said.
"And Astoria." I said, looking into her eyes. "You should know, you did nothing wrong at all, okay?"

I shook my head. "It's just one more year.. I can last. And I dont want to give them the satisfaction." I answered.

"Half a year." I said, and I sighed. "I cant stand seeing this, and feeling helpless towards it.." I said. "You do not deserve any of this." I said.
I laid down on my bed, and I looked up at her. "Im going to make sure you dont do anymore.. so.. stay with me tonight." I said, patting the room right by me.

I sighed and slowly laid down next to him. He's not making this any easier for me.. He just makes me
. Alive..

I just wanted her happy.. really happy.. I pulled her close to.me and I pulled the blankets over us. "Goodnight.." I said, and I closed my eyes.


(Tired, ill be on tomorrow! Good night!)

I snuggled close to him, and I hooked my leg over his hip like I usually do. I slowly fell asleep, my heart swelling with affection for him.

(Goodnight!)

I felt.. funny.. I had butterflies and I really enjoyed this. Its never happened before, my feelings have never really taken me over. I closed my eyes and tried to get my mind off this, she would never want me anyway..

I curled my fingers in his longer hair as I tried to fall asleep. I love Angus.. That's clear now. And now it's too late.. He's seeing someone else.. Though no one knows him like I do..

It was all so sweet, this.. would I get this with Ashley? With anyone else?
I woke the next morning, and I didnt want to move, her still in the exact same position, just a little closer. "Hey.." I said softly..

I woke up and opened my eyes, yawning softly. "Hi.." I answered softly. I slowly moved out of that position, sitting up. My wrist aches..

"Do.. you have any bacon?" I asked, smiling slightly, we both loved bacon, our favorite breakfast food.

I looked down at him and grinned. "Of course! " I answered. I hopped out of bed and went to the kitchen, getting out the bacon.

I helped get our plates out. And cups of milk, and when the bacon was done, her and I had a mini feast. Like old times. We would always sleepover at eachothers houses, we never did anything all parents assume we would. Our parents just were never home to see it.

After we finished eating, I washed the dishes. "So.. It's Sunday.. Wanna watch movies?"

I looked up and nodded. "Lets do it." I said, and I grabbed us some pillows and blankets and we got comfortable on the couch.

I put in the first movie and I sat with him on the couch, laying my head on his shoulder.

My shoulder was not sore anymore, I got my stitches out on Tuesday, thank god..
This movie was both very inappropriate and very funny, to rhe point her and I were in tears

"Oh my god, I can't breathe!." I gasped, doubling up in laughter. My stomach was killing me from the laughter.

Soon we calmed ourselves. "Wow, I havent laughed that hard in years..." I said, smiling.
We did this pretty much all day, untill it was really late. I kissed her forehead before heading to my bedroom and flopping onto my bed.

The next morning, I woke up and took a shower, then I got dressed and did my hair and makeup. "Ready?" I asked him. We walked to school together, talking about random stuff.

"I have a chemistry test today.." I mentioned. "That I forgot to study for.." I said, sighing. "Fuck.."

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(So have the fight happen when at school? Maybe ashley runs up to him?+)

I frowned. "Too bad." I answered. We walked inside of the building and to my locker.

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Yes

I walked her to her locker, and I started to walk away when I felt someone grab my hand, and lips press to mine. "Hey.." I heard Ashley say. "Hi.." I said, a bit surprised

I turned around and dropped my books in shock. Ashley?! This is the cool kind girl he's been seeing? Cool my ass! "You can't be serious right now." I said, slamming my locker shut. "Ashley. Out of all the girls you could have chosen, you had to go with the biggest bitch in school."

"What? What are you talking about?" I said, I was really confused. "Ashley does not even know you." I said, looking at her. "Maybe you shouldn't be so judgmental."

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(Crap, bad timing, gotta go.)

"Doesn't know me? Who do you think is the one who started shit with me because of the abortion?" I asked, crossing my arms. "I have no idea what she's talking about." Ashley said innocently, tossing her blonde hair.

"Well it couldn't have been this Ashley." I said, shaking my head. "Why cant you be happy with me for once?" I said

"I'm not fucking blind, I know it's this Ashley. I would be happy with you if you stopped being a fucking dumbass!" I yelled, glaring at both of them. I am going to fucking kill both of them.