Childhood Friends Turn Into Sweethearts?

"But.. I.. We... Have to try.." I said, and I looked into her eyes. I sat beside her, and I pulled her into my lap, she was sitting sideways. It was just as a friendly thing.. "You're all I have.," I said, and I looked down. What if she turns me Away ? And says I'm a freak or something..

Tears streamed down my cheeks and my body trembled. "You're all I have to.." I whispered. I buried my face in his chest and clutched his shirt in my hands, crying softly. It felt so good to be in his arms again.

"Sh...". I soothed, my hand rubbing her back softly, and I kissed her for head, and buried my face in her hair, inhaling deeply.. "I'm here for you.." I said, my face still in her hair. I gently took her hand, and rolled up her sleeve gently, and I kissed her scars, and fresh cuts. I wanted her to know that I care..

I flinched softly at first, but my body soon relaxed. His lips are soothing and warm against my cold, scarred skin. I looked away, suddenly ashamed of what I've been doing to myself. I've been scarring myself.I had beautiful skin. Soft and pale. Then I ruined it by cutting..

"Stay tonight?" I asked softly. I rubbed her shoulder gently, pulling her to my chest a little more. "Listen to me, Tober.. You are a strong girl, okay?" (Haha, love the Tober name:p) "Look at them as battle scars. It shows that you have a past, and that you've been through a lot of shit, and some people would have taken their lives for it, but you're still here, with me.." I said, and I gently touched her chin, and I looked at her lips, then into her eyes. We were very close now..

I looked away quickly and hid my face in his chest. We were wayy too close to kissing.. I can't let that happen.. We're just friends, right. "I know..." I mumbled, sighing softly.

When she jolted her head away, and into my chest. "Don't you ever forget it, okay?" I said, rubbing her back softly. I guess the way she pulled away was her way of rejecting me in a way..

I looked back up at him and forced a small smile. "Okay..." I whispered. I kissed his cheek lightly and I looked down at my lap, sighing softly.

"You never answered.. You going to stay the night?" I asked and I gave her a light squeeze. It was late already. I exactly didn't know what we were right now, probably friends, and maybe all we ever will be..

I nodded. "Yeah, I guess..." I whispered. I leaned against him and I closed my eyes for a moment, just letting his warmth sink in. I finally got off of his lap and stood up, running my fingers through my hair.

I stood, and I leaned against the wall. "Well... I'm going to go to bed now, its pretty late now.." I said, and I smiled. "Join me? Or you could stay in the other room.." I said, not wanting to force her to sell in the same bed as me.

"I'll join you.." I said softy. We went to his room and I took my shirt and pants off. I was wearing a tank top and shorts under my clothes. I slipped in bed with him and sighed, closing my eyes.

I slipped some basketball shorts on, and I removed my shirt, I hoped that she was okay with this. I laid down, and I pulled her close to me, spooning her. I just wanted her in my arms, knowing I had her in my life again. "This okay?" I asked, and I pulled the blanket over us and I laid my face in her hair.. I missed her..

I closed my eyes and smiled. "Yes." I whispered. It's been so long since he's held me like this. The last time he did was right after my parents died and he stayed with me all night while I cried myself to sleep. He really is an amazing guy.

(Sorry! I got distracted.)

"Okay... Goodnight Tober.." I said and I closed my eyes, and I soon fell asleep, quite easily, with her in my arms. I felt her moving in my arms, and whining. I opened my eyes, must be a nightmare. "Sh..." I said softly, rubbing her arm gently.

I turned in his arms so I was facing him and I buried my face in his chest, breathing shakily. "Damn it..." I mumbled. I hate getting nightmares. It's so embarrassing.

"Its okay." I said, and I rubbed her side gently. I closed my eyes again, and drifted back to sleep slowly. I was glad to have her in my life again, I thought I would die of depression or something. My eyes opened in the morning, and I looked at October, who was still sleeping, she looked so peaceful. I smiled softly, watching her nose twitch a couple times.

I opened my eyes and looked up at Jake. I smiled slightly and stretched, yawning softly. "Good morning." I said softly.

I smiled when her eyes fluttered oven. "Morning.." I sat up slowly, and rubbed my eyes. "Want anything to eat?" I asked, standing and grabbing some clothes to get dressed in, I wasn't hungry, and maybe wouldn't be until next week.

"Sure." I mumbled. I sat up and changed into some clothes I had left last time I sent the night. I brushed through my hair and then walked into the kitchen with Jake.

I got dressed quickly in the bathroom, and walked out, into the kitchen. "Okay.. Cereal.. Bacon.. Waffles.." I said, looking around, naming her the choices I had. I looked at her, she looked very sleepy still.. But I thought it was cute..

I shrugged. "Whatever is easiest I guess.." I mumbled. I sat down at the bar and grabbed an apple, biting into it.

I grabbed a couple chocolate chip waffles, and popped them in the toaster, and I sat beside her. "How are you? You had a nightmare last night.." I said, whenever she had nightmares, they always had her parents involved somehow.

I shook my head as I chewed on my apple. "It's nothing.." I whispered, looking away from him. The nightmare was the doctor calling me to tell me that my parents died on the operating table after a car crash. I went to see their dead bodies and I puked at the sight of them. I remember I clung to them at the viewing and Jake had to drag me out of the funeral home. I stayed at his house for a while. I now live in my parent's old home alone.

I saw the look in her eyes, and I sighed, pulling her into a comforting hug. "Okay, its fine," I said, and I kissed her forehead. "How are you feeling? Your a little warm." I said, touching her forehead once more.

I sighed and pulled away from him. "I'm fine Jake.. Stop worrying..." I mumbled. I threw away my apple and laid my head down, frowning lightly.

"Sorry.." I said softly. I was just trying to be a good friend.. I always felt like she was pushing me away. I stood up, and I walked away, sitting on the couch, and watching TV, I got bored of it, and turned the Xbox on, playing modern warfare three. Cursing a couple times when I got killed.

I ate some waffles and then walked over, looking down at him. "Jake... I want to visit my parent's grave..... Will you go with me?" I asked softly

I looked up at her, and my eyes softened. "Yes, of course." I said, standing and I turned the TV off. I grabbed my CSR keys, and walked outside with her, and to the car, we were soon at the graveyard. This was such a sad place..

I had bought some flowers and I sat at their graves which were side by side and I placed the flowers on them. I sat on the ground in between the graves and I stared at the tombstones, sighing softly.