The Help

Tears filled my eyes and I stared down into his loving, hopeful eyes. "I... I don't think that's a good idea Slade." I whispered, a single tear rolling down my face. I heard a few people who were watching gasp.

My smile soon turned to a frown as the realization of the rejection hitting me like a train. "Oh.." was all I could say.. I slowly put the ring back in my pocket.. I was hurt.. so hurt.. I planned all of this out..

"I.. I just... We need more time... We're only 18.. I am so sorry..." I whispered, my heart literally shattering at the look on his face.

I refused to look at her.. maybe she was right.. but. That didnt stop me from feeling hurt.. I slowly turned and began to walk away. I needed my own time.. to get everything back together in my head..

I watched him leave, and I turned away from the onlookers, closing my eyes and taking a few deep, calming breaths. Will he want to be with me anymore? I took a cab back home and I debated wheather or not I should go in.

In the meantime I had returned the ring and I crashed on the couch, leaving the door unlocked incase shecame home.. I wasnt exactly mad at her, I was.. just hurt.

I finally walked in and locked the door, and I noticed him asleep on the couch. I grabbed the blanket and draped it over him, then I gently kissed his forehead. "I love you.." I whispered. I straightened up and went upstairs to bed.

I opened my eyes, watching as she walked away.. I slowly closed them again, and I went back to sleep.. never wanting to wake up. . . But the next morning I did. I sat up, and rubbed my eyes. What a crazy dream. Wait.. that really did happen. I did get rejected by the girl I loved.

I didn't want to go down and face him. I didn't want to see the hurt in his eyes. I laid in bed, staring up at the ceiling. Why did he jump to this?

I sat and thought for a while.. maybe it was too soon.. why am I such an idiot?! . . I was scared to lose her.. after my parents an previous friends.. I didnt want her to abandon me also. I was scared that she would get up and be gone any second.. especially after last night..

I finally got up and went out to the living room, bracing myself. I slowly sat on the couch next to him and I touched his shoulder. "Slade?" I whispered nervously. "Are you okay?"

I slowly sat up, and I kept looking down. "Im fine hon.." I said gently, taking her hand, and kissing it. "Dont worry about it okay?.." I said. I was having a whole internal debate and anxiety attack inside of me..

I watched him for a minute, squeezing his hand. "Look me in the eye and say that."

I looked into her eyes, and put on my best poker face, and smile.. "I'm fine. Okay?" I said gently, and I kissed her cheek gently before I stood..

I watched him, and I let go of his hand. "..Okay.." I whispered, grabbing the blanket and folding it up.

"You're.. still.. going to stay here.. right?" I asked her, the anxiety to much to not ignore at this point

I looked up at him, surprised. I slowly stood up. "Of course baby..." I gently hugged him. "Did you think that I'd leave?"

I slowly wrapped my arms around her. "Yeah.. I.. thought I would wake up to an empty home.." I said , honestly..

I pulled him closer and I looked up into his sad eyes. "You never will.. Okay? I love you, I really do." I gently touched his cheek, feeling very guilty.

I nodded slowly, and I closed my eyes and pressed my forehead to her neck gently.. "I love you too.." I whispered, hugging her to me..

We stayed like that for a long while, holding each other. I leaned up and connected our lips softly, my arms wrapping around his neck.

I kissed her back slowly, lovingly.. maybe we really should take our time. But now when would I know ever the right time to really propose? How long did she need?..

After a few moments, I slowly pulled away and I looked into his eyes, resting my hand on his cheek.

I looked back into her eyes, and I sighed gently, and I kissed her forehead. "Im going to go take a shower.." I said, and slowly walked away and up the stairs and into the bathroom.

"Okay." I said softly as I watched him walk away. I sighed and sat on the couch, getting on Netflix.

After my shower, I got dressed in decent clothes and I headed down, running my fingers through my slightly damp hair. "Want to go for a walk?"

I looked up and nodded. "Yeah, sure." I replied and I got up and followed him outside.

After a while of walking hand in hand, I looked at her. "Hey.".. I said. "Im sorry.. for.. putting you on the spot like that last night.."

I looked up at him and squeezed his hand tighter. "I'm sorry for.. Hurting you like that..."

"Hey, dont.. you have nothing to be sorry for, okay?" I said, kissing her lips sweetly.