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"I dont blame her.." I said softly. I glanced at her and I then looked back around the old fort, it needed an upgrade, real solid walls and a working door, new windows.. "How about we work on this." I said holding both hands up gesturing to the room. "It needs an upgrade." I said.
I smiled slightly. "I guess it does.." I answered. I sat up and hugged him. "I missed you a lot, you know.."
"Maybe this summer." I said, and I smiled slightly when she hugged me, and I wrapped my arms around her slowly. "I missed you too.." I said, rubbing her back.
"So much has happened.." I whispered, closing my eyes. He gives the most amazing hugs. I rested my face in his neck, like I used to.
"Like?.." I asked, and I laid back on the pillows, my arm still around her.
I snuggled close to him and closed my eyes. "A year after you left, I got in a car wreck and almost died.. Remember Chuck, my ex? Last year he invited me to a party and he got me drunk, and he.." I sighed. "He raped me.." I felt silent sobs start to rock my body. "I just remember the pain because I was still a virgin, you know? And the I found out I was pregnant.." I sat up and covered my face. "I had a fucking abortion. I killed the life inside of me because I was so scared Angus..." I cried harder, my body shaking.
I was shocked.. speechless.. I held her to me tightly as she sobbed, so much has happened to the both of us.. "Astoria I'm so sorry.. im so sorry that I wasnt here to be with you in that hospital.. to beat that guy to a pulp.. and to help you through that especially.." I said, more guilt came over me. "Hey.. hey.. look at me..." I said, and I gently grabbed her fave and had her look at me. "No secrets.. we tell eachother everything.. we always stick together, no matter what.."
I nodded and tried to stop crying, my chest heaving in shaky breaths and hiccups. I laid back down and wiped my face. "Now the girls at school hold it against me that I had an abortion.. You can't keep secrets in this town, you know that.. And all the guys think I'm a whore because of Chuck.. They call me Angel Face because Chuck said I have the sexiest face ever when I give blowjobs.. And I've never given anyone a blow job! I just can't do this anymore.. I'd rather go to France with dad, but I can't leave my mom.."
"You're not a whore Toria.." I said, using her old nickname. "And you know youre not one. Those people are sick. Im going to give that Chuck a little talk." I said, standing, anger voiling inside of me.. I wonder if the prick still lives whee he was a few years ago.
"No no, please don't.." I said, getting up. "The last thing I need is for all of this to be brought up again.." I said, grabbing his hand.
It took every ounce of me to not go against her wishes, and I sighed, and I looked down and nodded. "Okay.." I said.
I kissed his cheek gently. "Thank you..."
"You're welcome.." I said, and I looked down at my school bag. "Lets get our minds off this stuff.. okay? How about some frozen yogurt?"
I grinned and hugged him. "You know me so well.." I said. We walked out and went over to Orangeleaf, the frozen yogurt place.
I smiled and I kissed her forehead. I took my leather jacket off and set it down. "Lets go." I said, and soon we were at the frozen yogurt place, I got salted caramel pretzel, with brownie bites on top, I always got the same thing.
I just got regular chocolate with cherries and m&ms. We sat by the window as we ate and talked about old times.
"And remember that one time in 8th grade when we snuck out of class, and we ran from the principal to 7-eleven?" I said, and busted out laughing, that day we both laughed till we cried, and I think we were about to do it again.
I laughed and hit my hand on the table. "Yes! We got in so much trouble.. Remember when we went hunting for big foot in the woods?"
I chuckled even more. "Yes.. good times, holy shit.." I said, taking another bite of the frozen yogurt. "Brain freeze." I said, holding my forehead
I giggled. "That's funny!" I laid my head on the table, hardly able to contain my laughter. He's so adorable.
"Its not funny!" I insisted, shaking my head, and it was soon gone. "Brat." I said, chuckling. I got up, and pretended to throw my yogurt away, but I pressed the container to the back of her neck,
I gasped in surprise and whipped around, knocking the container out of his hand. "You asshole!"
I leaned against the table, laughing, then I stuck my tongue out at her. "Bleeh." I said, and I looked down at the container on the floor. "Look what you did."
"Oh hush. Help me clean it up." I got some towels and I began to wipe up the mess.
I shook my head and I heloed clean it up, and I threw it aawY. "There." I said. "Lets get out of here." I said, smiling. Wow, she has changed so much.. but shes the same ..
We walked out and I bumped his shoulder as we walked. "So.. Where are you staying now? Are you on your own, or do you have a roommate?"
"Homeless shelter.." I said, scratching the back of my neck. I ran away from home, and came back here.
I frowned. "What about your old place?" I asked.
"People live in it now." I said, and I continued looking at the ground. "Im fine where I am, its.. decent."
I took his hand and made him stop walking. "No.. You shouldn't have to live there.. You can come live with me. You're always welcome in my home."
"I don't know.. I mean.. will it be okay with your mom?" I asked, I cant believe she was offering that, after the years I ignored her. I gave her hand a squeeze.
I nodded. "Of course. She loves you, you know that." I said with a soft smile. "I can go talk to her tonight."
I smiled, and nodded. "Alright. Sounds good.." I said. "Can er go to your house? I miss her." I said.
I smiled and nodded. "Sure." I replied. We walked to my house and I led him inside. Not too much has changed, except there were no pictures of my dad anywhere nor was there any of his stuff. His pictures were all in my room. "Mom!" I called. "Come here! Someone's here to see you!" I heard footsteps and my mom came down. "Angus?" She asked disbelievingly.
I smiled , seeing her, and I noticed the bit of emptiness, both in her eyes and around the house. "Its me." I said, shrugging. "Im back." I said, hugging her mom sweetly.
"Oh it's so nice to see you! Look at you! What happened? You changed so much." She said. "Then again, we all changed.." She kissed his cheek. "Welcome back." We had dinner, then I decided to sit down and ask her about Angus staying with us. She didn't even ask any questions. "Of course! You didn't even have to ask!"
Dinner was amazing, and I felt like I was home.. a new home. "Really?" I said, smiling, I was so excited. I hugged them both. "Thank you.. this means alot to me.." I said.
I smiled. "It's really no problem. We have a guest bedroom." Mom decided to go to bed early so we sat on the couch and watched movies.
I really couldnt have started school on a more awkward day, on a Friday. But I was glad, since we stayed up really late watching cheesy comedies. Then we watched a movie that had a raunchy sex scene in it. I awkwardly looked away, rubbing my temples.
I pretended to text on my phone when that scene was occurring. This kind of stuff didn't use to bother us, but I guess things are different now since we both hit puberty..