The truth behind LOVE.

I gasped when I saw the guy on the ground, I ran over, and I quickly tried to call for someone to help, someone handed me a tshirt, and I pressed down on his wound, trying to stop the bleeding. The look in Rainers eyes.. it hurt me to see.

"You're going to be okay Reuben.." I whispered. "I don't think so Rainer.. His healing powers aren't fast enough.. He's not pure." Ambrose said. "Shut up!" I yelled at him. "He's right Rainer.. Don't worry about me okay? Just kill those bastards..." He said hoarsely. "I will.."

I watched as Reuben slowly fell limp, my hand covering my mouth. Oh my god.. hes.. dead. I looked at Rainer, ive never seen someone look so broken. It hurt me to see.him like that. I slowly took his hand. This would be very hard..

I pulled my hand away and choked on my tears. My best friend.. I rested my forehead on his chest, my body trembling. I couldn't take it. I suddenly got up and transformed, running away as fast as I could. I let out a loud, mournful howl.

I watched as they slowly covered his body with a blanket, I stood , the tingle in my chest from my mourning mate.. I felt awful. I watched as he ran off, and I sat down on the steps to the cabin. He would be back.. hopefully safe..

I came home later that afternoon and I transformed, putting clothes on. We buried Reuben and then I went to my room without a word. I couldn't find the will to talk.

I slowly walked into his room, and I sat beside him, it was like I wasnt there. He didnt look up or anything. "Rainer.." I said softly, taking his hand. "Look at me.." I said, softly

I glanced up at her for a moment, then I looked away again and laid down, curling up into a ball. Ambrose came up and tried to get me to eat, but I just shook my head.

I sighed sadly, and I sat beside him, and moved him so his head was in my lap, I softly ran my fingers through his hair, and I placed soft kisses on his ear. I hated seeing him like this. "Im here for you.. I'm not going anywhere, and I promise that.." Isaid softly.

((I'm literally crying because my guy best friend's name is actually Reuben. D:))

I closed my eyes and I let myself cry. I didn't make any noise, my body just shook with silent sobs. I couldn't stand the intense pain. It should have been me.

(Noo dont crrry . :c )

"Shh.. babe.." I said, trying to soothe him in any way I could think of. I kissed his tears away, and continued tobrun my fingers through his hair as he shook with the sobs. My eyes began to water, just from seeing him in this state. I began to sing quietly, bob marleys three little birds. I was always told I had a nice singing voice. Whenever I was sad, I sang that song to myself. To calm me down.

I wiped away my remaining tears and I listened to her sing. I slowly calmed down and I fell asleep, grief gripping my heart.

I cared so much for this guy .. a lot.. he was my soul mate. The guy I would spend forever with. When I saw that he was asleep, I wiped his remaining tears away, and continued to hum quietly. My hand gently rubbed his shoulder, just trying to comfort him in any way I could..

The next day I got up and ate only a cup of yogurt. I sat at Reuben's grave all day, running my fingers over the soft dirt.

He was not talking. To anyone. Ive tried to talk to him, he either ignores me, or just stares at me. I tried to not take it personally , I knew he was grieving in his own way. I saw him over at Reubens grave. I went for a walk, leaving him there. I shouldnt go on walks alone, But I would be fine if I stayed close to the pack house.

I looked up and I saw her leaving. I got up and followed her. After a little ways I grabbed her hand and turned her around. I didn't want her going by herself. I can't bear to lose her too.

I gasped, feeling myself get pulled to him. "Jesus Christ.. you scared me." I said softly. I looked up into his eyes, reading them as best as I can. Concern, worry.. is what I saw. I leaned up and kissed his cheek. "Okay. Ill stay ." I said, walking back with him..

I sighed softly and I stared at Reuben's grave as we passed it. We went inside and I sat by the fire, staring into the flames. I couldn't stop thinking about it. School isn't going to be the same. Reuben and I always hunted together and we should share meat in the winter time. He was the one I told everything to..

I sat beside him, and watched him as he looked into the fire sadly, I took his hand, and when he turned his head to me, I slowly leaned in.. I pressed my lips to his sweetly.

Ive never felt anything like this before. I closed my eyes and the grief, the pain, disappeared for a little while.

I could feel his emotions, the way they all poured into me. It was overwhelming.. I just wanted him to not feel pain, even if it was just for a few seconds. The sparks, and tingles shot through me and I got the shivers as I slowly pulled back. My hand touching his cheek. I looked back at him, seeing if he would actually say something.

I looked into her eyes and held her close. "Why?" I whispered, my voice scratchy.

I let my fingertips continue to graze his cheek and I then looked up as he said something. I shook my head, and I kissed his cheek. "It felt right.." I said softly, looking up into his eyes. He was so broken..

I nodded. "Are you hungry?" I asked softly.

I shook my head. Ive just lost my appetite the past couple days, from anxiety and other things I havent mentioned. I took his hand and took him inside with me.

I silenced myself once more as we sat with the pack. Everyone was so sad.

I looked up at him, and I kissed him before walking down the hall and to his bedroom. I laid down, and sighed, closing my eyes. Just a nap..

I eventually went and laid next to her, holding her. My only comfort.

I turned, and snuggled close to him, tracing soft circles in his chest with my finger lightly. "It will all get better soon.." I said gently.

I only sighed in response. What if it doesn't get better? How can I face school again? How can I go into English without him by my side? I closed my eyes and kissed her forehead.