The Help

I stayed frozen for a few minutes, then I walked out and threw Sydney a dirty look. Why didn't she warn me? I walked out and went to my room, slamming the door shut and going straight to bed.

(Brb)

((Ok))

Whenever I saw her the next couple days, I didnt even purposely run into her, I just completely ignored her, I didnt even look at her.

I just hung out with Sydney all the time. I couldn't even stand to be in the same room as him.

(I'll reply in an hour. At lunch)

Okay

I knew by the way she looked at me, that she seemed to hate me on a whole new level now. I pretended it didnt hurt, but it did, this is why I cant get feelings for anyone. I just stayed in my room, not even bothering to go to go get any food. Whenever someone knocked, I ignored it

He must be starving by now.. I sighed and grabbed some food and walked to his room, knocking. "John ? It's me."

I heard who it was, and I sighed, and I slowly got up. And I opened the door, looking down at the food. She hated me.. why was she doing this?

I looked up at him and handed him the food. "Here. See you later." I turned and walked away.

I watched as she walked away, and I sighed, and I headed vack into my room, and ate.. a few weeks passed, and her and I still didnt talk much. But there was another party, that I was begged to go to, I did, and I sat there on yhe couch tiredly..

I walked in, arm in arm with Sydney and I smiled at my friends. I sat with them and I looked up and noticed John. I looked away quickly and looked down at the cards that were in my hands.

I just quietly sat and drank my soda, seeing how she looked at me. I frowned softly, and I continued to drink my soda. I felt funny. And this soda tasted odd

I started to feel a little silly and I started to giggle at nothing. "Who spiked the soda?" I asked. "Jerimiah." Jacob answered.

I sat the soda down after that. Crap. That was my third drink. I just stayed there, and I didnt want to embarrass myself.

I got up and danced with everyone, having an okay time. I limited my drinks. I didn't want to get drunk and have one of the douchebags take advantage of me.

I sneakily left the party, very bored and not interested in anything or anyone there.

(Hmm.. what should happen next?)

((Idk... -_-))

I walked outside for some fresh air and I felt dizzy and sad. I hate this. I hate being an orphan. And I hate John. I hate everything.

(You okay?... I hope im doing okay....)

I just laid on my bed in my room playing video games. "Fucking shit! Fuck you! Fuck youuuu!" I yelled, raging like crazy

((I'm just frustrated. I can't fucking get anywhere in any of the rps because I fucking suck.))

(You dont suck, don't say that. Youre actually really good. Maybewe can make longer posts, ill try to make longer ones too.

((I'm trying...))

(Ill try harder too.)

((Okay...))

Another year passed and I was 17. Difficult times were still around and I tried to keep the smaller kids happier. The orphanage now had rations. And I nearly always almost starved. Because I give my rations to the younger kids.

I turned 17, and still I acted like a jerk to Aurora, I had lost all my other friends from being so distant, and it felt like it was just me. . .

I didn't understand why he was so mean. Why does he bully me? Why does he still my rations? I sat at the homeless shelter and held a baby, feeding him.

I walked by the homeless shelter, and I saw Aurora there , feeding a baby. I looked down and kept walking, I hated seeing the hurt look in her eyes. I walked into the video game store, and got a new game, and headed out

I came back to the orphanage after a busy day, and I sat in my room and began to cry. I was sick of the pain and suffering. I wanted to leave. I hate starving. I'm sick of watching people die. I'm sick of being alone.

I sat and played my game for hours, and then I turned it off, needing a break. I stood and went for a walk down the narrow hallway, and I heard faint crying coming Auroras room, and I went to knock on it but I paused, and continued walking.. "Dont get close to anyone.."

At dinner, this little girl was crying that she was still very hungry and so I gave her my ration. I haven't eaten in 3 days because I keep giving away my rations.

I decided to go down to dinner, and I got my food.. I looked up as I walked through the tables, and I watched as Aurora gave away her food again. She needs to stop doing that.. I mean, she needs food too.. I placed my tray in front of her, and kept walking. I was not hungry, and she neede it

I looked up, shocked and I sighed as he walked away. I silently ate the food and then I went up to my room. Why did he give me his food? He hates me..

I headed back to the main building, and I went into the courtyard, where a memorial for my grandmother was.. I knelt in front of the stone, and I sighed. She started this orphanage.

((I thought he wasn't from there..))

I looked out the window and I noticed him kneeling next to a tomb. I walked out and I stood a little ways, behind him. "You okay?"

(Scratch my other post then, sorry... aahg my brain hurts today... )

I looked at the stone that had an inspirational quote on it and I sighed. It wasnt helping me much.. I jumped slightly, hearing a voice. Auroras voice.. "Im fine." I said softly, and I stood and sat on the bench, holding my head in my hands.

I frowned and I hesitantly sat next to him. "Why... Did you give me your food earlier?"

"You needed it more than me." I stated simply, and I looked up at her , and I sighed softly. This was hard. So hard. "I have to go." I said rather quickly, and I stood, heading out.of the courtyard. Dont get.close to anyone..

"Wait!" I called. I got up and caught up with him. "Do you hate me so much that you can't even stand to have a 5 minute conversation with me?"

I looked down at her, and I sighed.. "I cant trust anyone.. " I said softly. "Its best, that I just stay independent. Please, leave it at this.." I said, and continued to walk away..