The Help

I pressed myself closer to him, our lips meshing together in perfect sync. He is such a great kisser..

I continued to kiss her lovingly, my tongue slowly finding my way into her mouth..

Wow, we have never gone this far before.. I parted my lips and my tongue wrapped around his lovingly, my arms circling around his neck.

Ive done this before.. only one other person. And ive gone all the way with one person. Someone I shouldn't mention..
I groaned softly and continued to kiss her, the way her body pressed to mine..

I have never gone all the way with anyone before. It's kind of hard to do that in an orphanage. I tilted my head and deepened the kiss, my heart pounding.

I slowly slid my hands under her shirt, just staying in her lower stomach, not going any higher without her approval

I shivered delightedly when his cool hands touched my warm skin. A thought suddenly occurred. My scars... From the car wreck.. All over my back, sides, and some on my stomach. If he sees, he'll surely be disgusted..

I slowly stopped, and kissed her neck slowly.. I noticed the way she kind of froze.. "Hey.. what's wrong.." I said gently

I looked down, and bit my lips, shaking my head. "Slade.. Remember when I told you I got in that car wreck with my parents?" When he nodded, I absentmindedly ran my fingers through his hair. "Well.. I just.. Have a lot of scars..."

I looked back at her and nodded. "Thats fine sweetheart.. I dont mind.. I.. have a couple myself.." I said, slowly taking my shirt off, showing the scratches on my chest. "Cliff diving. Dont do it.. sharp rocks."

I gently ran my fingertips over his chest, and I smiled, a little relieved. I leaned in and kissed him once more, closing my eyes.

I slowly ran my finger tips over her stomach, feeling some scars already.. I kissed her back lovingly..

The kiss gradually got more and more intense, and I slowly pulled away, taking the hem of my shirt. I took a deep breath before pulling my shirt of up and over my head. I head a few long scars on my stomach, but my back was the worse.

I slowly ran my fingertips over the scars, I then looked up into her eyes. I reconnected our lips and I laid her back, hovering over her as I kissed her sweetly

I rested my hands on his cheeks and I kissed him back slowly, smiling behind the kiss. He really doesn't care about my horrible scars.. That makes me so happy.

I could care less about scars.. I loved her, and I was positive about doing this.. I kissed her neck slowly and passionately, suckling on the skin..

I tilted my head to the side, exposing more of my neck. I tangled my fingers in his dark locks and I closed my eyes, moaning softly. My neck is a huge sensitive spot for me.

I could tell she loved this.. I slowly suckled more.. more into her soft spot, nipping slightly also.

He seemed somewhat experienced.. Has he done this before? I slowly opened my eyes. "Slade.. Have you done this before?.."

What do I say.. do I say that.. I had sex before? Who it was with was the big thing. It was with Sydney..

I looked at her, and nodded..

I stared up at him, tilting a head to my side. He came to the orphanage when he was 15... It had to be with someone at the orphanage. "Who?" I asked curiously.

"Its better off that.. you don't know.. " I said, looking away. "It dont matter." I said

I frowned. Why can't he tell me? It can't be that bad can it? "Well... Alright." I said, giving up the subject for now. I leaned up and kissed him once more, my hand gently rubbing his smooth back.

What would happen if she found out? I couldn't.. have her get hurt.. but I couldnt lie.. I slowly broke the kiss. "Sydney.."

I didn't understand at first, but as my head cleared, my eyes widened, and I just stared at him in shock. He slept with my best friend?! I closed my eyes, taking a deep, calming breath. "When?" I whispered.

"The night I turned 17.." I said, looking away.. I just ruinied this..

I kept my eyes closed, because I didn't have the will to open them. That wasnt long ago at all. Right before we got together in fact. "Why?"

"It.. dont matter. Okay? Its done. Its in the past.. " I said gently, looking away, sitting up..

But what he doesn't understand is that it does matter me and him had been connecting at the time, kinda, he was having trust issues, and Sydney KNEW I had a crush on him at the time. I felt hurt and betrayed. "Yeah..just the past." I echoed, sitting up as well. I had no desire to sleep with him now. I grabbed my shirt and slipped it on.

I didn't stop her.. I didnt blame her.. she needed a little time for it to sink in... I had to explain the details when she wanted to talk again..

I slept next to him that night, but I kept my back to him the whole time so he wouldn't see or hear me crying. I'm very good at hiding it. I wiped my eyes and eventually fell asleep, filled with dread that I would be seeing Sydney tomorrow night.

In the morning, I opened my eyes, and saw her there, her back to me.. I sighed, and I pulled her back to my chest, and I kissed her neck softly.. "Hey.. can.. I explain?" I whispered..

I frowned, and opened my eyes, staring out the partly opened window. "Sure." I answered tiredly.

I hardly got any sleep last night.. "What happened.. both her and I were drunk.. I was more so than her.. we woke up the next day, and she had to tell me what happened.. I hardly remember anything.." I said.

"Okay." I answered simply. What else can I say? I know I shouldn't be upset.. They were drunk.. And Sydney has always been a slutty drunk..

I sighed softly.. still feeling a bit guilty. I havent talked to Sydney since. I mean when I was drunk.. I honestly thought it was Aurora.
I kissed her head gently.. "sorry.." I whispered..

I just closed my eyes, and a sudden thought occurred to me. "Wait.. Why did you two get drunk together anyways? There was no parties that night..."

I furrowed my brows and thought.. "I.. dont remember." I said honestly. I just remember waking up with her by me.

I was so overcome with emotion. I got up abruptly and I picked out an outfit. "I'm going to the store to pick out ingredients for dinner tonight."

I watched her, and I sighed.. I didn't say anything, I just rolled over and closed my eyes.