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Being around her was already too much for me to handle.. I couldnt put her in danger like that. I set my phone up, and I went for a walk, thinking about the decesion I was going to make. It was honestly the only thing I could do.. Well I couldn't tell her what I was, she would be scared of me or something..
I made me some spaghetti and garlic breadsticks and I put the leftovers in the 'refrigerator. I got dressed in a black tank top and shorts, threw my hair in a ponytail, and went to bed.
I woke up the next morning, and took a hot shower, the water feeling nice on my skin. When I was done, I stepped out and fixed my hair and got dressed. I checked my phone for any messages or calls. Today I had to start ignoring October, sadly.. I didn't want to, I really didnt..
I woke up the next morning and I took a quick shower, got dressed, and did ny hair and makeup. I grabbed my phone and texted Jake. 'Hey. How are you feeling?'
My phone was on silent, so I wasn't tempted to see any text or calls and reply. I was just on my Xbox, being pretty much a no-life. I got tired of losing, and I raged, squeezing my controller. It broke apart in my hands. Shit. I dropped it on the ground, and held my head in my hands. This sucks..
He wouldn't answer anybody my texts or calls and when I went to his apartment he didn't answer the door. I'm really getting worried about him. I finally banged on the door. "Jake? I know you're in there! Why are you ignoring me? What did I do wrong?"
It pained me to leave her hanging at the door.. She was here.. What could I do.. Well... I stood up, and I opened the door, smiling warmly, I looked like my normal self. "I'm not ignoring you, why would you think that? My phone is dead, so sorry if I missed any calls.. Come in, please." I said. This would be hard, but on the bright side, I wasn't feeling the need to attack her.
He looked normal today... I frowned and gently placed my palm on his forehead. I stepped inside and turned around to look at him. "Are you sure you're okay? I was worried sick about you..."
"Im really, really sorry I've been worrying you.. I'm fine, I really am.. Okay? Please, don't worry.." I said, touching her shoulders lightly, looking into her eyes deeply, the tone of my voice sounded a little more pained than I wanted it to be. "Stay here tonight?" I suggested. So she could see I was okay.
I sighed and moved away from his touch. "Alright..." I mumbled. I'm still not convinced. There is something really wrong with him.
Why did she move away. "I'm sorry, 'Tober." I said, and I sat down, and I grabbed her hand swiftly, and sat her beside me. "How have you been?" I asked her. I know that she just got over a pretty bad depression, I mean, losing your parents is not fun at all..
I sighed and looked down at my lap. "Fine..." I mumbled, glancing at our hands. I let go of his hand and closed my eyes, rubbing my temples.
"October.. Just fine? Pull your sleeve up.." I said, I knew that her depression used to cause her to cut, but it wasnt major, and the scars were very very faded now, but whenever she didn't look me in the eye, I knew that something was on her mind.
I sighed and slowly pulled my sleeve up. I had a lot of cuts on my wrists. I looked away from him and pulled my sleeve back down.
The scent of the blood was intoxicating.. But when she pulled her sleeves back down, the scent disappeared. But then realization hit me. "October.. Why? What happened?" I asked, still looking down at her wrists.. It was getting harder and harder, I had to get a grip. I looked back into her eyes, awaiting her answer.
I crossed my arms tightly across my chest and looked away from him. "Nothing. Just leave it alone.." I mumbled. I really just don't want to talk about it.
(Sorry my phone got taken away at school so I couldn't reply..)
"Yeah., sorry.." I said, feeling bad about bringing it up now. "But.. If you ever need anything, I'll be here, and you know that. I really care about you October." I said.
I looked at him. "I know. Thanks." I leaned back on the couch and slipped off my jacket. I had short sleeves on but I kept my scars hidden by crossing my arms again.
"What to you want to do? Watch a movie? Have me kick your butt on Xbox.." I said, the last one a suggestion, and a challenge all in one. I chuckled slightly. But when she took her jacket off, it was too much.. I stood up quickly, and ran to the bathroom, locking myself in. Shit..
I watched him run and I walked to the bathroom door, knocking lightly. "Jake? You okay? Did you get sick again?"
"Yes.. I'm sorry.. Maybe you could stay sometime next week when I'm feeling better.." I couched, making it sound like I was getting sick. "I'm okay though." I said, my fangs came in, and my skim turned cold and pale..
I sighed softly. "Alright.. Feel better..." I turned and went to the couch and grabbed my jacket. I slipped it on and walked out, walking back towards my house.
I felt bad.. Awful.. I would have to ignore her until I felt better.. I packed some stuff, and my phone, and I grabbed a stack of ,money, and I left a note on the door. Sorry.. was all it said, and I headed to the nearest hotel, and I stayed there for a couple of days, every day worrying about October..
When I read the note on his door, I rose an eyebrow. I knocked on the door. Nothing. I grabbed my phone and texted him. 'What the hell is going on?' I sent.
I got the text, but I didn't reply.. Guilt hitting me like a slap to the face.. My thirst was getting better, and around people I was used to it now, maybe this would be a piece of cake.. After another week or so, I'll go home.,
I tried to contact him every day, but he never answered. I started to get really worried and depression hit me harder than ever. I stayed home, and cut. My best friend is supposed to be there for me, but he just left without talking to me...
A week had passed, and I thought I had gotten much better, a lady cut her finger when she broke a glass,amend it didn't phase me. I headed back home, and I saw the note was gone. October.. I walked in, and closed the door behind me, I had to go over , and tell her.. I grabbed ,y var keys again, and drover to her house. I knocked on the door, waiting anxiously..
I heard a knock and I got up and slipped my jacket on. I walked to the door and opened it, looking up at Jake. I stared at him for a moment before I rolled my eyes and slammed the door in his face.
"October.. please.." I said, and the door was slammed in my face. I didn't hear the door lock, so I opened it slowly, and stepped in. "Please.. Let me explain myself.. Just let me.." I said, her blood scent hit me, but didn't phase me.. I was scared to see how much she had cut though.. I looked into her eyes as they started to water. "please.."
"Get out of my house, you asshole. You can't just leave without saying anything and then just expect to waltz right back into my life whenever you want!" I turned and walked away from him, going to my room and laying down on my side.
You Asshole. those words repeated a few times. "October, I'm Sorryy.. Just let me explain.." When she walked away, I groaned, and I just left, smelling the door, I felt awful.. But I honestly knew what I did was right, I was protecting her! I was a fucking monster now, I just wanted her safe as I got used to what I was..
After he left I just broke down crying and I wrapped my arms around myself. I can't just forgive him.. Best friends don't do that to each other.. They just don't.
(Wtf, I just noticed my typo, haha instead of slamming the door, I put "smelling the door" my bad, hahaha. )
I was sitting on the porch steps still.. I couldnt find a way to walk away from this.. I decided to walk back inside, prepared to have every curse word thrown at me, I walked to her room, and leaned in the doorway. "Tober... Can I just talk?" I asked. I saw the anger, and hurt in her eyes. She probably would never forgive me..
"Don't Tober me.." I spat, glaring up at him. I turned my back to him. "What the hell happened to you? You left a stupid note just saying Sorry? You couldn't even call me to say bye?! That was a bitch move right there."
"I know.. I know.. I fell awful.. Okay? The reason why I did what I did.. Was.." I began, rubbing my face. "I got turned into a.. Vampire.. Your blood was too strong for me to handle, so.. To protect you I had to go away for a little, and get used to the monster I am.." I said. She would probably still call me an asshole, and tell me to get the fuck out. I waited for her answer, my eyes watering slightly..
I sighed and sat up, looking over at him. "Bullshit. Get the fuck out Jake. Just leave me alone!" I threw a pillow at him, my voice hard and my eyes unforgiving.
Called it. "Explain this." I said, I've figure out how to change back and forth from vampire to human. My skin went pale, my eyes bright red, and my fangs going in. "But fine.. I'll leave!" I said, heading out, closing her door, and then slamming the front one. I really couldn't do much now.. I started to hear down the road, frustration boiling in my veins.
I stared after him, then I got up quickly and locked all of the doors and windows. I can't be around that! I laid in bed, terrified. What just happened? I began to cry. I can't be around him anymore.. Ever.
I felt like my whole life was turned upside down, I had absolutely no one, my best friend hated me and thought I was some sort of killer, and I was so lost and alone right now. The days passed solely, and very, very painfully. I waited for texts, calls, anything! I was desperate.. I've gone into a major depression, something I will probably never recover from.
A few weeks later I decided to get dressed and go to the park. It was snowing and I walked to the park and sat down on the bench. I had huge bags under my eyes and I just didn't look as bright and healthy.