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I backed away when she held the needle in my direction.. Her words stung.. She was all I had right now, and to see her like this pained me.. I heard the ambulance pull up and medics run in. They struggled a little to get her on the stretcher and they asked if I wanted to ride with her, I just shook my head.. They walked out with her, and loaded her up into the ambulance and drove off.. I just sank to the ground, knots were in my stomach.. I just started to cry, and I couldn't stand the thought of losing her like this..
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When we got to the hospital I was rushed to the Emergency Room and they had to pump the pills from my stomach and put medicine in my system to get rid of the heroin. Once it was all over, I just laid there, staring at the ceiling, my heart hurting. He shouldn't have called the ambulance. Now I'm going to get sent to Rehab.
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I couldn't do anything now. If I went to see her, she would yell at me. If I called her, she would yell at me.. If I went near her she would yell at me. I just wanted to be with her now. But the argument we had broke us up.. We were doing so well, then this happened. I grabbed a picture of us off the night stand and I just stared at it.. We were so happy..
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"I'm sorry miss.. We'll have to send you to Rehab.." A man said. I broke down in tears. "Please, no... I can't... My boyfriend and I just broke up, that's why I did it..." I whimpered. He shook his head. "I'm sorry-" "DON'T I'M SORRY ME! YOU'RE HAPPY TO MAKE PEOPLE MISERABLE! I JUST BEAT A FUCKING DISEASE CAN I NOT GET A BREAK?!" They put a needle in my arm to calm me down. "You don't want me addicted to drugs, but yet you give me some.... The irony..." I whispered, then I passed out.
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I looked around the room, and I was just so tired of everything.. I just wanted her, safe in my arms. I wants to kiss her, and tell her everything would be alright.. But things were not alright. I stood up and I threw the picture on the bed so it didnt break, and I walked to the closet, opening up my safe, and taking out the felt box I had, and I looked at the ring inside of it.. The beautiful, diamond ring I had put most of my savings into.. And now the chances of her marrying me, ever.. Have all vanished..
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A few hours later, I was forced out of the hospital and they drove me to a Rehab. More like a mental institution to me. It's one of the intense one. The place where everyone wants to kill themselves. I sat in the room with only one window that had bars on it and I thought of Jake. What is he doing right now? Tears stung my eyes and I cried in my pillow. How could he do this to me? if he wouldn't have called the hospital, I wouldn't be forced to come here.
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I just wanted to know how she was doing.. I called the hospital, and asked how October was. She said she was fine, and now in the rehab facility. Rehab? But, they only put people in rehab when its their second time in the hospital on the drug, this was her first time. I asked for the rehab facility's number and talked to them about the situation. We soon came to an agreement that she had to see a counsuler once a week. And that since it was her first time in the hospital on the drug, that they would release her. I thanked them, and I called a taxi to pick her up.
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"A taxi is here to get you." A man said, grabbing my arm and pulling me up. I didn't ask questions, I just went. Anything to get out of there. I should sue that man. I wasn't supposed to go. I only went to the hospital for it once..
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I knew October wouldn't want to see me, so I packed a couple changes of clothes and my phone and charger. I left her a note on the door.
October,
I am staying at a nearby hotel, and I have my phone with me.. If you want me to dome Becky, just call me. And I know you're probably pissed at me for calling the ambulance, but it was your first time there on drugs, I didn't think they would make that mistake and send you to rehab.. But anyway, I'm sorry.
Jake
I posted it on the door, and I walked to a nearby hotel.
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When I got home, I saw the note and I ripped it off, throwing it on the ground. "Some man you are.." I mumbled. I walked into the bedroom and saw the syringe exactly where I had left it. I sat on the bed and stared at it, itching to grab it. Why didn't he take it? Is he wanting this to happen? Is he really sorry?
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The next week was pretty much shitty, and I never got a call from October. I was worried about her.. I walked to the store, and I bought some flowers, and chocolate. She would probably throw them away.. But it was worth a shot.. I took out my key, and I unlocked the door, stepping in. "October?" I said quietly. It had been a week wince the incident.
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I was laying on the couch. I had the syringe and pills locked away. I was shaking slightly from withdraws. I looked up and sighed when he walked in. "What?"
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She didnt sound angry.. Good sign.. I walked into the living room slowly, and I set the roses and chocolate on the table in front of her. "I.. Just wanted to bring these by.." I said, and I looked away. I knew I was still hated, and I could feel it. She had also said some awful things in the argument, so all it couldnt be placed on me..
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I tightened the blankets around myself and I looked up at the TV, tears in my eyes. Seeing him right now is killing me. And I feel so guilty, for the things I said. I don't think our relationship will ever be the same again.
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I sat beside her, but gave her space also.. "Hey.. Can we work things out?" I asked her. "Well.. What I said in our argument.. I didn't man any of it.. October, you're all I have right now.. I'm sorry that the argument had to escalate like that.." I said, and I saw that tears started to fill her eyes. It killed me to not have her in my arms right now
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"I didn't mean what I said either, but Jake.." I looked at him and shook my head. "How can we ever go back to the way we were after an argument like that?" I asked, wiping my tears.
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"I think this made us stronger.. In a way.. I think that we can go back to the way we were.. And I know it will take a little time.. But I know we can.." I said, and I looked at her.. This is what I was scared of, us breaking up and never wanting to see each other again.. It almost went that far, . but hey, it didn't,,
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I sighed and looked away from him. "I guess..." I whispered. I turned off the TV and looked at him, having no idea what to do or say to him.
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I slowly took her hand. "Be mine again? Please.." I said, looking into her eyes, she was shaking a little, but that was just from withdrawal.. It would fade soon. It also scared the legit shit out of me knowing that she got back on the drugs.. Hopefully, she would stop..
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I looked up into his eyes and nodded. "Okay.." I whispered. I looked into his eyes for a second before I looked down, trying to control the shaking.
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I took her hand slowly, and I pulled her close to me, and I kissed her softly.. "Thank you..." I said, and I looked into her eyes. "Let's never let an argument get to that level.." I said and I looked into her eyes, touching her cheek.
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I nodded and looked into his eyes. "Okay..." I whispered. I hugged him tightly, so happy to be in his loving arms again.
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I hugged her tightly, and I kissed her forehead.. "And.. Please.. Don't don't do the drugs.." I added, still feeling her shake. "How do you feel? You really scared me.." I said, and in looked into her eyes..
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"I'm fine..." I whispered. I buried my face in his neck and squeezed him tightly, not daring to let go. I can't believe I almost lost this amazing man forever.
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"Where is that needle? And the pills?" I asked her. I had to throw them away, and get them away from her so she wouldn't do it again.. I held her to me, and I rubbed her back gently, and I ran my hand through her hair softly.
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"I locked them away so I wouldn't be tempted.." I whispered. I closed my eyes and kissed his neck gently. "Please just, don't move yet..." I whispered.
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"Okay.." I said and I looked down at her. "Hey.. I love you.." I said and I slowly pulled her lips to mine, my hand touching her cheek sweetly. I pulled hr onto my lap so that she was now straddling me, my other hand softly rested on her side,
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I wrapped my arms around his neck and closed my eyes, kissing him back deeply, almost desperately. I have to show him that I love him.. That I will never let him go ever again.
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I kissed her passionately and I squeezed her side softly, and I kissed down to her neck, nibbling a her neck softly, both my hand were now on her waist, holding her firmly against me.
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I let out a soft moan of pleasure. My neck has always been one of my weakest spots. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back, making my neck more accessible for him.
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I began to suck lightly on her neck, my hands slowly slipping in her back pockets. The way she moaned, told me that her neck was her weakness. I loved her, so much.. I really dd,..
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I bit my lip and held back a moan as I rubbed his shoulders gently. "Mm... Jake..." I breathed.
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I slowly picked her up, her legs around my waist and I carried her to the bedroom, and I laid her on the bed, and I hovered over her, our lips reconnecting , hungrily, my hands ran down her sides slowly. Did she want to do this?
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I have no doubts in my mind. I want him. I have to show him that I love him. I wrapped my legs around his waist and moaned softly.
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I shivered and I continued to kiss her.. This was really happening.. I could tell by the look in her eye and the way she was kissing me that she wanted to do this.. I removed my shirt, and I bent down and I kissed her collar bone, going slightly lower, then kissing back up slowly.
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My breathing heavied and I leaned my head back, closing my eyes. "Jake..." I whispered, moaning softly.
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"You smell good.." I said against the skin on her neck. I kissed her lips once, more, my fingertips running along the bottom of her shirt, I tugged lightly on it.
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I smiled and moved his hands away, lifting my shirt off myself. I tossed it to the side and grinned. "Thanks." I replied softly.
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I slowly reached down and I undid her zipper. "Do you want to do this?..." I asked double checking with her.. I didn't want to push her into anything. I undid my jeans, and while waiting for her answer I kissed her softly.
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I broke the kiss and looked into his eyes. "I've never felt so sure about anything in my entire life." I whispered. I kissed him deeply and bit his bottom lip gently.