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This was not how I wanted things to go at all.. I watched her leave, and I laid back on the bed, and curled up, and just stayed like that... What do I do?...

I just drove around and tried to get her out of my mind but I couldn't. I heard sudden honking and then the next thing I knew I was spinning. Someone hit the edge of my car, then I got t-boned. Then I got hit head on. The car finally stopped and my vision was fuzzy and I couldn't hear much. I heard yelling, then there was a man there, asking if I was okay. I nodded vaguely and I heard something about the jaws of life and I felt a lot of pain in my chest,legs, and head.

I heard lots of sirens and racket outside down the road, and Lavender was gone for quite long while .. I stood up from the bed and I headed outside and down the road, and I froze... It was Lavendrs ccar.. I tried to run to it, but I was blocked off. "Tell me she's okay! Please tell me she's okay!.." I was yelling

"Don't move her, or you could kill her!" I heard a perimedic yell and they finally managed to open the car and check me out. Then they cautiously got me on a stretcher. "My head..." I groaned. I could see stars.

When I saw her being put on the stretcher. "Lavender!... Lavender!.." I couldn't do anything, me being held back still. I felt so much guilt. If I hadn't had said what I did, she wouldn't have driven off .. I eventually just fell to my knees, a major anxiety attack upon me.

Once in the hospital, they took me to the ER and I blacked out. When I woke up, the doctor told me I broke a few ribs and my legs were a little strained and I had a concussion, but it was a miracle I was alive.

I was anxiously waiting to hear anything.. It was a Sunday, and even the cab company was closed today, and they wouldn't let me get in the Ambulance with her. Guess who walked several miles to get here?.. "Mar..Zia?" He doctor badly pronounced as he walked in the waiting room. I jumped up and quickly walked over to him and followed as he led me to the room, updating me on her injuries.

I heard a soft knock on the door and the doctor's voice. "You have a visitor." I opened my eyes and watched as Marzia came in. "Hey.." I said softly.

I felt tears come to my eyes, it was so scary seeing her on this bed. I held them back and touched her shoulder gently. "Are you okay?" I asked her gently, brushing some hair from her face.

I nodded. "Yup. I'm great." I answered with a sigh, closing my eyes at her touch. "I've been in worse wrecks. I'll be fine, don't worry."

"When will you get out?" Iasked. The guilt inside almost making me sick to my stomach.

"In a week or so. Not sure." I took a sip of water. "What's wrong?" I asked.

A week?.. I took a seat in a chair by her bed, and I looked down at my lap. "Nothing's wrong. I am glad you're okay though.. I was in the apartment when I heard a crash, then lots of sirens .. I had to walk to the hospital to see you." I said.

I looked over at her and sighed. "It was a three way collision." I closed my eyes for a minute. "But I'm one lucky girl because I came out pretty good."

"Yeah. I'm so relieved.." I said, looking at her empty water glass. I picked it up, and walked to the sink and filled it up, setting it back on her table. "Is there anything I can do?"

I shook my head. "Nah I'll be okay.. Thank you." I whispered, giving her a small smile.

I nodded slowly. "Okay..And.. I'm sorry about what I said earlier, that made you drive off like that..." I said. "I really didn't intend on hurting you like that."

I sighed. "Honey it was not your fault. I just happened to be at the wrong at the wrong time. Dont blame yourself.. And you did mean it, you know you did."

Before I could say anything back, the nurse came in. "Visiting hours are over now, you're going to have to leave." She told me, and I looked back at Lavender, and I sighed as I stood, and left without a word.

I watched her walk away and I sighed and took my medication. The next day I woke up, my head hurting.

I didn't go clubbing or do anything, really, I just laid back and thought about how Lavender was doing. I didn't want to visit her much, I thought she would thing I was annoying or something.

Some of my friends visited me but I didn't care. All I wanted was to see Marzia. Why doesnt she visit me? Is she mad at me?..

The next day I walked to the store and got some flowers, an then I walked to the hospital, and to her room. I smiled once I walked in. "Hey.." I said, setting the flowers down.

"Hi." I answered softly. I sat up slowly, wincing slightly. "What's up?"

"Hey.." I said gently, smiling. "I hope you like the flowers." I said softly, and I took a seat by her bed. "I've just been holding down the home." I said, and I messed with the hem of my flowy shirt mindlessly. "Are you okay?"

I nodded and looked up at the ceiling. "Yeah. Just hella bored." I said, sighing softly.

"A few more days right?" I asked her and I watched her as she looked up at the ceiling. "And then school starts.."

I sighed. "Its gonna suck.." I mumbled, glancing at her.

"At least its only a couple classes each day. And it starts later, and that's a plus.." I said. "And I have a pretty kick ass roommate to do this thing with."

I smiled slightly. "Thanks." I said softly. I sat up and took a drink of water.