My controversy.

So here I am, waiting here. Another fifteen minutes and I'll take those four pills they gave me at the clinic and that will be the end of this ordeal. I'm quite scared. Hearing all these stories about the pain that comes with this makes me more than nervous, but I have prepped absolutely everything I'll need, so if it does turn out this night is horrible... I will be ready.

I still haven't told anyone what I'm doing, except my boyfriend. He's supportive of course, he knows we can't have a child right now, and we really are in no position to. With my mental health, our economic situation and the fact we would just make terrible parents right now is why I'm doing this.

I know there are other girls out there who are scared like me, and I want to write this all down so they can get a real play by play on my experience.

...I am such a doofus. I thought this was a diary post.