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"She won't answer and you know it. We both know how Shell can be, and we know how she holds grudges. You messed up,"I said softly, raising an eyebrow at him. I sighed and shook my head,"You aren't horrible... Just not smart. "
"Why should I? He literally got out from under me and ran for the hills. He was all good and dandy the three hours we were doing the dirty. You would think he would stop somewhere in there if he wasn't comfortable,"I said, shaking my head.
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I sighed, and shook my head. "Don't remind me.." I stood and I headed to the bathoom, and I took a long shower, and after that, I got dressed and went for a walk, planning to be gone all day. I had to think about my mistake, and plane about how I could attempt to fix it.. this was my mistake and I had to pay the price..
"Well.. I'm really sorry.. he Shouldnt have done that.. I just hope everything gets worked out. I'm here for you, okay?" I said, going her a small hug. She was a year and a half older than me, But I was trying to give the beautiful advice I could..
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The next few days sucked. I had broken my phone when I threw it so I had to wait for a new one. I worked and kept to myself. I was happy Lavender was happy with Braydon, it was good for her... I walked into work slowly, pulling my hair back into its usual bun and tied on my apron.
Knock. Knock. I stood up and smiled as I opened the door, Lavender was here. I took her hand and pulled her close,"Hello, beautiful."
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Over the next few days, I rarely talked to Brandon, and I just stayed in my room. This was killing me.. and the sad thing is, I never came up with a solution to fix it. I had one idea, and I knew that it most likely wouldn't work. It was all I had.. I called up a flower place, and I ordered 24 red roses to her work, and I would have the card say; I'm sorry, please give me another chance..
I was wearing black shorts, and a purple lace top, with a black undershirt. My long hair was curled and my makeup was simple. I knocked on the door, smiling at the handsome man that opened it. I chuckled when he pulled my close and I kissed him softly. "Hello.." I said, smiling.
(Sorry toOK a while.)
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"Michelle!! Get out here!"I walked to the front of Red Lobster, a huge display of red roses on the counter. I signed and picked the note out, sighing. My hert melted, but I felt fire in me as well... I apologized and took the flowers to the back room, grabbing the office phone since I didn't have mine. I had to call him. I dialed his number, sighing.
"You look stunning,"I said softly in her ear, hugging her warmly.
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After an hours or so, my phone rang. Could it be? I answered it quickly. "Hello? Michelle? ".. it was her work number.. if it really was her I couldn't screw up this time.. I still felt really bad, and I had to let her know and apologize.
I smiled and I felt my cheeks get a little warm. "Thank you.. you too.." I said, wrapping my arms around his neck.. I pulled Away and looked into his eyes. "How are you?" i asked.
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The moment I heard his voice I felt a lump form in my throat and I quickly hung up, sitting back. I couldn't... I just couldn't. I got up and throughout the night gave roses to little girls and happy couples. I didn't want them... I couldn't.
"I'm alright... How's Michelle?"I asked, looking back at Paxton's door.
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Paxton -
When I heard the heartbreaking beep, I set my phone down.. I knew she got off work in a couple hours.. maybe I should go over and talk to her in person. Even if she didn't forgive me, I still just wanted time see her..
Lavender-
"She.. could be much, much better.." I said, looking down, I hated seeing her like that. I slowly walked over to the couch and sat down. "Has he been in his room alot? " I asked. I know Shelly has..
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I was closing tonight and I waved everyone off to clean up. I began to wipe down the tables and counter, organize menus and everything you do when you close a resturaunt.
"He has... He said he loves her,"I said, sitting beside her.
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I stood up, and I opened my door, and I headed outside. "I'm going for a walk.." I said before leaving. Maybe I could wait for her.. I headed in the direction of her house,.and when I arrived, I sat on the steps in front of her door.. she wasn't home yet.
I watched as he left. Where is he really going? I shook the thought. "Yeah.. he does.. I think Michelle might too." I looked up into his eyes, I hoped that I'm and I would never get in a fight..
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I locked up and began to walk home. As I walked down the sidewalk I could see a figure on the front steps and I sighed, standing at the need of the walkway.
"Do you think she does? I mean... She wanted a no strings attached thing,"I said, sighing.
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I heard light footsteps, it was dark out, But I knew it was Michelle.. I saw how she paused, maybe knowing it was me.. I stood up slowly, and I walked over.. "Can I please talk to you?" I asked, my voice desperate.. I was desperate.. I just needed her...
"Well.. if this is upsetting her this much, she must be in love also.." I said, and I rested my head on his shoulder. I looked at the TV, seeing my favorite show was on.
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I looked down at the ground and crossed my arms, looking back up at him. I couldn't say no... He was already here, and blocking y way inside,"Talk..."
"I guess... I don't know,"I said, becoming silent.
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(Focus on Michelle and Paxton for a little?)
I looked at her, hurt still clear in her eyes.. "Okay.. Well.. I know what I did was wrong, leaving without a word.. But.. you wanted no strings attached, no feelings, Nothing.. I can't do that. I mean.. I cant do door because I think I'm in love with you. I couldn't do what you wanted me to do.. I couldn't go on because I knew it would mean Nothing later on.." I explained, trying to tell her in words Why I did what I did. "I didn't use you, and I never would. I was honestly scared, scared that if I went on that it would hurt both of us later.. But we are both hurt anyway.."
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(Sorry, I showered. )
I listened and sighed, looking down and then back up a few times. I dropped my arms and ran y Rogers through my hair, pulling it back,"What do you want me to say, Paxton? I don't know what you want from me..."
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(It's okay )
I looked down, sighing.. "I want a real relationship.." I said, But she probably would want one.. I mean she wanted friends with benefits.. if she wasn't ready, I could wait if she wasn't ready..
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"Paxton... How long has this been going on?"I asked quietly, looking up at him... I knew we were close... But we're we really that close?
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"About a week.." I said and I looked down. Would she reject me? Did she even accept my apology? I slowly looked back up into her eyes.
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I reached out and gently touched his cheek, sighing softly. I stared at his face in the darkness and pulled my hand away,"Want to come inside?"
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I nodded slowly. "Yes.." I said, and I let her walk by, and I followed her inside, and I flicked on a light.. "I'm really sorry.. I screwed up.."
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"Yeah... You did,"I said, setting my bag down on the couch and shrugging off my coat. I didn't know what to say to him or how to act.
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"Well.. what now? Should I just leave? " I said, she looked like she wanted Nothing to do with me still, I sighed and leaned against the wall.
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"No, don't leave,"I said, almost instantly I sighed, wrapping my arms around myself,"I don't want you Togo... But I don't know what to do. Everything was going so greatly and then gone. You were gone. No reason, nothing... Then you come here and tell me you love me? What am I supposed to do?"
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"I know it Sounds very odd.. and I know I was giving mixed signals. But now I really know how I feel.. and.. if you give me a chance, I won't ruin it.. " I said, rubbing the back of my neck. Talk about awkward..
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"Mixed signals? Paxton you slept with me! That no date or walk in the park!"I said, staring at him. I sighed,"How do I know you won't walk out on me again?"
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"Because I promise I won't do it again.. I've learned my lesson and I'm sorry it had to be learned this way.. please, just give me one more chance, and if I blow it, that's it." I said, knowing I wouldn't mess up again.
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I stared at him for a moment, and then looked at the ground. "Okay."
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"Really?" I said, smiling.. she still looked hurt, and that would last for a couple more days, I mean.. I was an ass on that day.. I walked up to her and I hugged her.."Thank you..."
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I rested my head down on his shoulder, letting him hug me, but I couldn't find it in me to return the embrace.
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The way she didn't hug me back told me that she just needed time.. I pulled Away slowly. "What do you want me to do?"