"There's nothing you HAVE to do, honey... We can do whatever you want,"I said gently.
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"There's nothing you HAVE to do, honey... We can do whatever you want,"I said gently.
I stared into her eyes, my heart pounding. I looked down, tears threatening to fall. "I'm scared..."
"Silke, don't cry... You don't have anything to be afraid of,"I said softly, taking her hand. I squeezed it,"Why are you scared?"
I looked down at her hands. "I don't want anything to go wrong. Our friendship could be ruined if something bad happens.. I don't know how my family would react.. And I've never been with a woman...."
"Don't rush yourself, Silke... We can start slow if you want to start at all... Lots of girls go through phases... We don't have to tell your family, and our friendships will never change..."
I turned to her and smiled gently. "You are so understanding Jamie... Thank you." I whispered. I leaned in and gently kissed her cheek, squeezing her hand gently.
I gave her a soft smile and nodded,"What kind of friends would I be if I wasn't?"
I sighed and smiled softly,looking down. "Right...."
"And... I am willing to be whatever you want me to be,"I said gently, squeezing her hand and kissing her cheek.
I turned my head to look into her eyes. "I want to be more than just friends..."
"And do you want it exclusive or open?"I asked quietly.
I sighed and looked down. "Open.." I whispered.
"And private I'm guessing,"I said, nodding slowly.
I looked up at her. "What?" I asked, confused.
"An open relationship... Like we can see other people than each other... And since you're not sure... I just figured you would want a private of secret relationship,"I explained, looking up at her.
((Shit that's not what I thought you meant by open relationship... I thought you meant open, as in not a secret relationship...)$
(Oh! Haha, my bad. xD )
I smiled and shook my head. "Oh, no that is not what I meant by an open relationship." I said with a laugh.
I furrowed my brow,"What did you mean, then?"
"I meant, that if I were to be with you, then it would be open. As in, not secret.." I said with a chuckle, looking down shyly.
"You wouldn't want to try it first?"I asked, surprised. Girls used me a lot... I was one of the few open bisexuals around and when a girl got curious or wanted to experiment, I was always the first call... Even straight girls would call me if they needed a pick-me up. I wasn't a whore... I just... Like girls.
I smiled and chuckled. "Of course I would want to try it first... But I really do like you a lot, I'm sure I'll like it." I said softly.
I squeezed her hand and blushed, looking into her eyes.
I stared into her eyes and blushed gently,"Then we can try it on the down low first,"I said, holding her hand.
I smiled and nodded, blushing slightly. "Okay...." I whispered.
I looked around slowly and smiled,"The party is dieing down... Ready to go home?"
I looked around and nodded. "Yes." We got off of the truck and got into the car. I turned on the heater and watched the city as we drove by.
I glanced at her as we pulled up to the house and smiled,"Come on..."
I nodded and got out. We snuck quietly upstairs and then I washed off my makeup and brushed my hair out. I got dressed into a tank too and shorts and I sat on the bed.
I glanced at her and smiled, having changed into a baggy t-shirt. I sat down next to her,"Anything you want to ask?"
I looked at her and smirked. "Remember that night when I was up and you walked in with your... Toy?" I giggled and blushed. "What was that about?"